Some will seek Forgiveness, Others Escape.

2009 - Humble Beginnings

2009-01-25T09:53:00.000-08:00

I decided to start blogging again. i noticed i haven't had any posts since a long time so might as well before i totally lose track of myself.

Writing for this blog is always a struggle and has always been. My thoughts are rather personal, so is my life. Which makes it even harder a struggle to post something.

I would like to start with introducing my girlfriend, significant other and my love, Sallester Lez Justin. She's a beautiful one. nothing has really been easy you know though i have finally reached a point where i'm ready for a commitment. to most girls probably this is a dream come true if their man actually has decided this. for me, it is far from it. it takes a lot of effort..a lot...

There has been loads of ups and downs. i don't think this is the end of the ride rather a beginning of a long journey. This time i'm giving my all and not giving up. Ester said that loving is painful and i had to really think in depth bout it. How can love be painful?

I know everyone deserves to have the best. Who doesn't right. But not everyone is always at their best. That's the irony of life. The irony of my life. I love Ester so so much. In my heart i know i have never fought so hard. Put in tremendous effort to actually maintain the relationship. I'm not one to play a fool anymore. Getting rather tired of playing the "love game". Never really like the idea of dating for fun and end up breaking the relationship and hurting someone. It's a painful experience.

I don't have much of an idea to what i want to post this time round. Except to tell the world i'm with Ester and i would do as much as i can to have her hand in marriage. Being together with her brings a smile to my face. Like how it is bringing a smile to my face now.

So here's a photo of us together. Congratulate us if you will and support us if you can. In this world there have been numerous counts of backstabbing, bad mouthing, slandering, deception, manipulation and other negatives. We had to go through them. Its painful to know that they're from the people closest to us.

Give us a chance to live our life peacefully. I'm not rich, i don't have money. i don't have anything materialistic to give to my love except my unconditional love alone. Anyone in this world deserves to have a chance to try and live their own decisions.

bryan

Beat the SYSTEM!! VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!

2008-07-21T18:30:00.000-07:00

copied off a friend's blog..too lazy to edit..BUT PLEASE VOTE VOTE VOTE...they need it..and no..i dun get anything except recognition that i helped my friend out...cheers!!!

my “indian” band is in discovery stage @ cineleisure this 2nd august, and there’s an online portion to the competition. the winner is the band with the highest number of votes online. so yes, beat the system needs you! if you havent heard any of our tracks yet, you can search us on facebook at “beathesystem” or just go to myspace.com/beathesystemband to hear our songs. here’s the link for voting

http://vote.mynightwish.net/

all you need to do is register for an account, click on the link in the verification email, login, and vote for beathesystem. pls remember to fill up 10 stars aiight? =]

do note that the website brings u to the next band’s page after u have voted, so don’t keep voting 10 stars, or else you would’ve voted for all the bands eventually

its a 1-registration-1-vote thing, but they also track your IP, so if u wish to do multiple votes, u can vote once at ur office, once at home, once at starbucks, once at a cybercafe, etc =D

also if u have a blog, pls help us by blogging about this! all help is very much appreciated by us at beathesystem. we love you! =]

Pinning Dreams - Dear Ephesus

2008-07-12T20:46:00.000-07:00

Pin that rose high.

Watch it fly.

Heard them laughing.

Watered eye.

You keep running.

Slow motion.

You keep flying.

Cut that string.

You can't make bread with dirt.

If you wanted to.

You can't make right what's wrong.

You're not that strong.

You bought that T-shirt.

I survived.

They all heard you.

Marching to your drum.

They said you look really dumb.

So unmoved.

They said your shoe was untied.

You went barefoot.

Brilliant my boy chasing dreams right down the street.

As you hold them down and pin them to your sleeve.

Such grand hurrahs as you stand on top of the world.

You're finally there it's the reason you believed.

(Dreams and clouds and blues so true.

Boys climb trees to reach to you.

And then you win and pin them to your sleeve.)

MacBook officially Pimped.

2008-05-29T20:38:00.000-07:00

My macbook has been officially pimped..
here are a couple of photos to show you how pimped out my macbook is..
ride on...

ave lyrics

2008-05-22T20:35:00.000-07:00

These Tears They Hurt While I Stare at the Blank Static Screen.

Zillfest Festivals

2008-05-22T11:56:00.000-07:00

I got the opportunity to play in a multi cultural fest in brisbane..so here's a photo update of it.. =)

Photo Update May '08

2008-05-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

Of vanities and vanities..i will yet have another photo update..thus far i have so much as gained lotsa weight..losing the sight of my collar bone..its most probably due to the fall/winter weather..its getting cold and my body is trying to adapt to it..and probably also due to my diet..
and lacking in the exercise too plus the lack of rest or actually the messed sleeping patterns..i have managed to gained lotsa bulk..as you can see in the photos...

there it is..photo update may 08..
cheers..oh..i'll be back in malaysia soon..see you all..

yes..apparently i've grown in bulk~

my hair has grown much longer too

my collection of shoes is growing too

smile..for her~

rock on! punk!

friends after a gig in brisbane

after the gig..some memories to go by

Home is Where We Look Forward To.

2008-04-15T01:17:00.000-07:00

Hey readers,

just had the privilege to send another friend off today. in retrospect i guess they're goin home in another view its kinda sad coz friends are leaving and we just don't know when we'll be meeting again. having international friends is awesome although chances of meeting with each other is at an all time low.

well, it'll be my turn soon and i'll be missing this place. Brunswick Heads, Byron Bay, Brisbane, Gold Coast...Australia as a whole. But home is where my heart is and home i will go back to. Home will always be the place that will remind me of where i started off and why did i go off in this direction for my life journey.

nothing's perfect in this world. that's the beauty of it. imperfectness brings a sort of beauty that's alive. being perfect is unfathomable to me. i will never be able to imagine that i do not need anything anymore. i do not need this and that... it is scary for me..but what's that you say. heaven's like that. dead wrong..only God's perfect. =) when we're in heaven we still need to do lots of things but the main thing is worship God day and night.

anyway.... i'll be home soon and i'm excited but i'm also sad at the same time when i have to leave new found friends and buddies. well that's life..we grow close and we grow apart and we build new bridges and continue building them as we progress on in our journey.

So to my mates who's gone. cheers and hope we'll meet again in the near future.

signing off
bryan

Nothing to say

2008-04-10T08:20:00.000-07:00

I really have nothing to say..so just have a nothing to say update..
muahahaha...

Camwhoring 101 - Lenard @ Ah Piau

2008-03-27T18:22:00.000-07:00

Thanks to lenard @ ah piau for his insightful lesson. =)

rule #1 for camwhoring - you must be a hot chick

rule #2 for camwhoring - the general public must acknowledge that you ARE indeed a hot chick

sadly u fail both the rules bro...

i humbly agree with you ah piau...i duly humbly agree~~

Awashed in an Ocean of Pages

2008-03-18T16:37:00.000-07:00

a lil photo update..i'm currently working as a LIBRARIAN

at my Uni..surprise surprise...
its my first day at work and now its class time for everyone
so no ones gonna come in at the moment...
so a quiet morning for me..yay~~
and also a very slow one...hehe..so decided to camwhore...
whole load of photos...of me..sadly...'-_-'
but i'm very thankful of getting a librarian job..
as i was telling lenard..
librarian by day, rocker by night, stalker by midnight..

after soundwaves i was able to catch Galvatrons,
Horsell Common and Shihad...
these bands are incredible...they're really good...
for $25 its hell worth all the cash...
one of the best gig ever...for me of course...Shihad was god!!!

haha...i guess that'll be my longest post for the year so far..hope to have more..
a few more months i'll be back in malaysia..yes!!
home sweet home..here i come baby~~

and bout the photos...if it looks really bad..
its the lighting i tell you..the lighting..
hahaha....

Broken Scar Special

2008-03-04T20:46:00.000-08:00

I received an email today. I am really honored to be put into such a position. hehe..this is the content of the email from my good friend Kevin Teh of Broken Scar fame.

Hey bro,

I've attached a copy of my latest single, Shooting Star in this email so you can have a listen without going online or anything troublesome like that. This is a better version of what is online, which is yet to be launched. I feel that my close friends should have special privileges unlike the public. No one else has this song on their computer but me and the band. So, here's an advance copy for you just to say that I appreciate your friendship.

The title, Shooting Star symbolizes rarity. You don't see shooting stars everyday, and when you do, you'd make a wish because it is a special. Good friends are like shooting stars, they are special and precious. It's also a song about appreciating everything that is around you, and living every moment of it. But of course, that is just my take on the song but now that it is in your hands, you own it. Be free to interpret the song however you like.

Feel free to give me feedback. It's fine to be critical and now is the time to do so because we can still make changes.

Enjoy the track. Will keep you updated on the official release.

Kev

Unfortunately i am gonna keep the song to myself..muahaha..
so please support Broken Scar and its endeavors..head to
www.brokenscar.com
cheers to you Kevin and Broken Scar..
may your journey be filled with great things
and greater things to come...

Soundwave Festival

2008-03-04T20:43:00.000-08:00

I was at soundwave festival a couple of weeks back..it was awesome..i hope to be able to go to another festival like that with all the big and heavy acts..not my list of conquered gigs is gonna grow super fast..muahahhaa..
well i dun have photos actually..haha..most of them are vids..and i've put them online on my youtube..so just search for montoku..but i've only updated 2 or 3 vids of killswitch engage..
if you want other videos like cartel and alexisonfire..lemme know..

cheers

Soundwave Festival

2008-02-19T09:43:00.000-08:00

Hell yeah!!!

i'm so gonna enjoy Soundwave Fest this coming saturday!!
This is gonna be a hit on my list..

its basically a rock festival..with huge metal, rock and even acoustic sets..and here's the line up..
so life long dream...here i come!! i can die young...haha

www.soundwavefestival.com

The Offspring
Incubus
Killswitch Engage
Infectious Grooves
Alexisonfire
Thursday
As I Lay Dying
Motion City Soundtrack
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
City And Colour
Saosin
Plain White T's
Jim Ward
Scary Kids Scaring Kids
Boys Like Girls
Cartel
Mindless Self Indulgence
Shadows Fall
MeWithoutYou
The Dear Hunter
Bleeding Through
Carpathian
Sugarcult
Fall Of Troy
All Time Low
From Autumn To Ashes
The Starting Line
As Tall As Lions
Kevin Devine
Mae
Receiving End Of Sirens
Still Remains
Socratic
Divine Heresy
Envy On The Coast
Haste The Day
Madina Lake
The Matches
My American Heart
Halifax

Of Talents and Shekels.

2008-02-02T04:09:00.000-08:00

Do you have times where they say that you're very talented but you think you're not at all. Probably thinking that we're not deserving of such a compliment at all.

Well i always felt like that when people say that i'm talented in playing music. If you wanna see talent in music, my brother is real talent...

i think to me..the real talent doesn't lie in music..but the way i can communicate with people not only in the context of a band..but how people can relate to me..probably that's what my talent is..i can't really play music that well..

in all humbleness i honestly believe this is so...

another introspective post by bryan..
cheers

Studio 301 Byron Bay

2008-02-01T04:37:00.000-08:00

I had the chance and opportunity to visit Studio 301 Byron Bay
Actually i had my class there..muahaha
its a really quaint place..not what i expected it to be
but it still a nice place nonetheless
and the sound...omg
orgasmicly orgasmic...haha
they had these Neve console..it sounded so good..
tho i guess for mixing it wouldn't really have
enough tracks..only 28 tracks..
but for tracking...its totally awesome...
its actually a Never Classic...one of the only
few in australia itself..prolly only 1 in aussie..
so here are some photos to show that i was there..

This is part of the studio. that's a leslie speaker over there
and an original tremolo organ..

And yes..that is me smiling like a madman..
The indian dude's JK..my classmate..
These are the rack gears..much less than i expected..but they
cost a lot..
That's the Neve Classic console..they're not cheap~

Legend

2008-01-28T22:38:00.000-08:00

Got myself an email today after helping out my classmate with an assignment that's killing everyone one of us..and i shall share it today on this blog..haha
Copy and pasted directly from the email...

dude you are a fucking legend!

Didnt realise how comprehensive it is!

Thank you so much, i owe you a beer or six...

good luck with yours, will let you know how i go,
peace

and there you go...haha..thanks sean..hope you get it done by then too..

The words that we speak and hear

2008-01-23T04:55:00.000-08:00

As i was goin thru my frienster page. I this posted by a friend on the bulletin bored. Which is so funny but am proud of..haha..these are words used or borrowed from other languages like malay and english as well as some chinese thrown in for some good measure...i've added 2 to the list too..which are 54 and 55..

I am by the way born and bred in Sabah.. Anak Sabah bah sia ni...jgn main main..haha
cheers..

1. tuuuna/ saaaana - points with the
lips - (there-- at a distance)(the
longer the 'tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuna /
saaaaaaaaaaaaaana' the further the place
is.)
2. limpas (to pass/walk by - Maaf, saya
limpas dulu? Euse me, can I passby?
3. palui (stupid, duh!)
4. tapuk (to hide)
5. bida (ugly)
6. bubut (as in proper malay- "kejar",
to cha53se)
7. sakai (ignorant, uncivilized, "hoosier")
8. andang-andang (that's how it is)
9. sapak (kasi campur/gaul --utk
masakan-to mix as in cooking)
10. inda/tia (short form of "tidak" -
not, no)
11. wicin (another brand of msg as in
"aji-no- moto" - a seasoning or food
enhancer)
12. talampau (proper malay -
"terlampau"- too much)
13. takajut (proper malay - "terkejut" -
shocked, startled)
14. siorang (proper malay -"kami"/
"saya-orang" - us, we)
15. ngam-ngam (proper malay "kebetulan"
- et, at that time)
16. mangkali (proper malay "barangkali"
- maybe, perhaps)
17. kamarin (proper malay "kelmarin" -
yesterday)
18. kanapa (proper malay "kenapa" - why)
19. gia (___expression - "is it?")
20. bah (___expression - "ok!")
21. ah? (question, "Apa?" What?)
22. kici/kicil (proper malay "kecil" -
small)
23. basar (proper malay "besar" - big, huge)
24. siok (___expression/description,
proper malay "seronok" - enjoyable,
great, etc-)
25. urang ("orang" - people; sometimes
used "diurang" - them, they)
26. karing ("kering" - dry)
27. umban ("humban, lempar" - throw)
28. kana ("kena"- got ie--"kena umban"
--got thrown)
29. padih ("pedih" - as in "Mata saya
padih/pedih!" - My eyes stings, painful)
30. numbur ("nombor" - number)
31. gali ("geli" as in squeemish about
something, or "gali"--gali lubang - as
in Dig a hole.)
32. dorang ("dia orang/diurang" - them,
they - Dorang pigi tamu. They went to
the market.)
33. panat ("penat" - tired)
34. katawa ("ketawa" - laugh, laughing)
35. lanjang (a.k.a. "periuk /belanga " -
pots/pans)
36. putung ("potong" - cut, slice)
37. Buduh ("bodoh" - stupid)
38. tongo/bongo ("stupido" - same as above )
39. kabaru-baruan ("kebaru-baruan"- new
to something)
40. giuk (proper malay "ulat"- worm)
41. Sikui (Tembikai - watermelon)
42. Santut (Underwear)
43. celana/salana (Seluar)
44. gipit (to grip...)
45. kanapatan/kadapatan (caught red
handed.. or as the malays in kl
say..'kantoi')
46. kebangkalan (choked while
eating..proper malay = 'tersedak')
47. ketulahan (bad karma)
48. bahai (plastic bag)
49. uinnaaa! (used to express various
feelings, mostly when surprised..)
50. ging (derived from the word gang..
means kawan/member)
51. jinjila =( jendela/ window kaa? hehhe)
52. jeraya= ( jalan raya)
53. cangkir= (gelas besar yg stanless still/ big
mug)
54. alang-alang (might as well)
55. kuku kula (coca cola..that's how my grandma prounounces it..haha)

Hero

2008-01-21T07:04:00.000-08:00

"He's a genius who's a monster with his talents.
He will surely win!"

"The monster only appears so that the Hero can defeat it"

-Katsu Vol 9.-

smile

2008-01-20T08:34:00.000-08:00

"it's possible to find calmness in everyday craziness.
find something to smile about daily:
it will soothe your soul...i found 1......his smile"

-Sallester Lez-

For Sallester in written form.

2008-01-20T08:27:00.000-08:00

Words aren't to be anything but a mode of communication.
But to us it has a special bond that surpasses the normal capabilities of speech.
Its not what's behind our lips that is speaking.
Instead it is our hearts that communicate and corresponds
to the emotive state we've felt for each other.
And that emotive state is called Love.

-bryan limus-

Contradictions

2008-01-20T08:25:00.000-08:00

In pursuit of something bigger, we forget the details.
When we focus on the details we lose sight of the big picture.
Why bother trying?
Because we cannot deny who we are.

-bryan limus-

the absent sound of me

2008-01-19T00:15:00.000-08:00

yep...that's how i look right now...
long unkept hair..need to do something bout it..

i was just in a friend's blog..she's hot..
i knew i'm gonna regret the moment i let go..
but i guess i have to move on...
especially when the parents hate my guts...
it doesn;t matter how much the girl thinks a world of you...
if the parents hates you...
we can just forget bout everything..
they'll give you the hardest time of your life..
i was threaten once..and it was very demeaning..

am i not good enough for anyone's parents...
i know i'm a good guy as long as i do NOT date their daughter...
and once i step over that threshold...
finished...the parents will give me hell...
i guess i'm just not good enough...

there goes me ranting over and over...
if i am an ass hole...so be it i guess...
unfortunately..

farewell...

More photos..

2008-01-15T22:22:00.000-08:00

Here are more photos of me taken the past few days..
self indulgent..haha..was really bored...hating it here...

look kinda pissed

.........

guess i saw something..

Thank you

2008-01-15T22:19:00.000-08:00

If you think the layout of my blog is nice. Then its all thanks to Tasha for helping me out.
Since i'm terribly lousy at doin this kinda stuff..so i sought her help..i like blog's layout..
simple and straightforward..so thanks to her..

My new beanie

2008-01-10T01:37:00.001-08:00

due to my currently long hair..i've bought myself a jap looking beanie so that i can keep most of my hair inside the thing...ingenious ain't it..

so yeah..that's the only update...

How i Look now..

2008-01-07T01:53:00.000-08:00

well here's another photo update..
i've been really lazy.. or prolly more like i am lazy..haha
anyway..photos of how i look like..
Showed a friend and she said i look japanese. Initially she said i look korean..hmm
quite asian right..haha

here are 2 photos of me in a wet suit after a swim in the pool...and another with me taking photo with my friend's oakley...need to cut my hair dy...

Grrrr

Apparently i look jap~

Was having christmas dinner with friends.
They cooked a good meal!!

Dear Ephesus

2008-01-07T01:49:00.000-08:00

My Dear Ephesus reach me right after new year's. So very happy.
My favorite band and the band that defined my musical direction.
Here's a photo for it..hehe..
And of course.. These CDs are rare. And I got them at really good deals. So happy..hehe

December is here...

2007-12-07T06:37:00.000-08:00

Well...it has been a while since i've blogged bout anything or blogged at all...
been kinda lazy..so i guess its due time that i blog bout something...
its december over here in OZ..nonetheless its a hot summer christmas...
now everyone say..... aaaawwwwweesuuuummmmmnnmmm~~~

i think i shall post photos again...for the fun of it...hehe
i'm actually halfway thru my degree...and its tough...missing malaysia everyday..
but i think when i go back malaysia..i'm gonna miss this damn place...haha

alright..now photo time...since most of you dun read my blog anyway...which is ironic since you are reading it now...hehe

oh oh oh..another thing...i got long hair~ beautiful long and straight hair that most girls that would make girls jealous..hehe....

and so...been trying to upload photos...taking ages and wonderful ages to upload...
so i have decided to do it another day..mebe tmr..when i have more photos...

Self Indulgent

2007-10-21T06:05:00.000-07:00

some of my self indulgent photos. haha..
yeah yeah...some of them look gay~ so what..
having fun..and being able to make fun of myself
is a GOOD thing...hehe..cheers...

Photos Galore.

2007-10-21T05:24:00.001-07:00

Some photos to update my well being.

A recording session in Monaal's room.

The cafe area.

Byron Bay had a hail storm. It was an experience.

The aftermath.

I have long hair and i tied it all the way back.

Post Production editing session.

Ocean Shores beach.

A quickie update...

2007-10-21T04:52:00.000-07:00

well...i have been super busy with tones of assignments....here's the low down..

1. Research Methodologies
- 3000 word report and i have to compare 3 articles and draw up a comparative analysis between them and they have to be related to my final creative project. -_-
- my first assignment...and dun think i did very well...sigh this i did in less than 24 hours

2. Audio Post Production
- not too hard. just need to put audio to a movie clip. which includes effects, foley, ADR and all sorta other stuff that related to a sound for the clip.
- the hardest part. a 4000 word logbook. is that even possible!!! but i manage to write more than 4000 words. this i did less than 24 hours

3. Cultural Perspectives
- such a pain of a subject. i had to compare 2 different artiste from different period and from different art form. so i chose mozart from the classical period and delacroix from the romantic period.
- 3000 word report.. this i did in less than 24 hours

4. Marketing
- now this is the pain of the large one...
- tough tough tough
- did it in a week and it had a presentation which i think my group kinda screwed up...
- this was like 50 pages at least!!! all the other subjects were half of that!!

so yeah...that wat i have been up to...but all's done..now for marketing and cultural perspective exams this coming week and then a week of break...muahaha!!

Looking like Rain.

2007-10-13T06:46:00.000-07:00

Has anyone told you that you look like someone before?
Well...i have...it was 3 years or so ago...and it had to be in phillipines...
the host and his family that took care of us told me that i look like a korean start...
from this show called Full House...

now i never watched the show before...nor did i get the chance to anyway...
so where ever i went...i got introduced as that actor from full house..
they would introduce me as Justin from the tv series Full House...i was like...god~ haha
Justin is the name of the character in the tv series...so i din know his real name..

so as time goes by...i had more people telling me i look like that guy..i was like..ok~~ wonderful..
i look korean~~ haha

then present time..when i moved into my room here in Brunswick Heads..coz i'm studying in australia mar..hahaa...the guy next to my room is korean...a real pure bred korean...
so he told me that i look like a star from korea...then i was like...oh really..i then said...issit the
guy who acted in Full House..he said yeah...done...

Till yesterday..i never gave much thought to it...until an hour ago...
i saw his photo somewhere..and tot...do i really look like him...
so i went on a quest to compare whether i look like him....
Lo and Behold!!! we do look kinda alike~~ hmmm
except of course...he is a very good dancer and actor...singer too...
and has a really tight ass body.. which is something that will take me a while to achieve with lotsa lotsa hard work...haha

so here's the comparison...photos....of me and Rain...

well...actually after looking at more photos...haha...we dun really look alike at all..
you be the judge...and of course..i smiled differently..and i'm a chubby..hahaha...hair so different..dunno lar..
but looking a bit like Rain..isn't a bad thing...and can be used to my advantage! hahaha
now to lose lotsa weight and gain some nice muscles to show off...haha

To quote a quote

2007-10-12T23:02:00.000-07:00

"I never knew exactly what I wanted. But, I knew what I didn't want! And that was doing paperwork. So I did everything that didn't involve it and it steered me to where I am now. And right now, I like everything that I am doing.

I was like, wow! Sometimes I am trying so hard to figure out what I want, that I miss the signs of what I don't want. What I don't want can lead me to where I am supposed to be and also guide me to find out what I want."

Thanks to Wee Liem's Dad, Mr Neo and Wee Liem himself for sharing this with the world. Long live the wisdom.

I Escaped (thank you sis in law)

2007-09-10T07:33:00.000-07:00

I Escaped.

I'm back to the familiar
Where my heart sit with comfort
I don't recognize these faces i see
But i know the face that i seek

This is where i escape
The refuge that i need
This is my only escape
Jesus, my refuge, my escape

To You From Me

2007-09-10T05:14:00.000-07:00

I realized that we're imperfections
No matter how much we polish ourselves
We'll never be able to shine at our best
Of the best moments is when i needed you

You never failed me nor consumed me with your anger
Instead i felt a different type of wrath
Something far stronger and longer lasting
And possibly something that can cut in deeper
Your Love

Time and over i failed you
Needless to know my actions and words were pointless
In the end i have myself to blame
The pain of knowing what i am capable of
And failing miserably

But you hated these words i've said
Words of my short comings and my foolish mistakes
How i tried to gained security from you
How my insecurities fail me time and ever

Yet you love me unconditionally no matter the outcome
It astounds me every time i am forgiven
Its beautiful the way you potray it
And the way you practice it and say it

For now all i want is to be with you
Geography is not on our side
The sun and moon are never on this side of the fence
But we are on the same green grass
With lots and lots of beautiful flowers

Because today and tonight
We are one
Even after the day we part from each other

I'm sorry.

2007-09-09T06:37:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for always being a pain to you.
I can only hope for things to turn out better.

September 08 - Switchfoot Live in Brisbane

2007-09-08T23:15:00.000-07:00

I was in brisbane on the 08 sept was there just to catch Switchfoot in concert in the Brisbane Convention Centre in Boondall...

They're really good!! i must say...hehe...improved so much from where they came from...i guess
they're tour veterans now...haha...good overall dynamics and flow of their setlist..
its not just running thru set list and playing song after song...they had lotsa stuff goin...

i have videos of the concert...but taken with my camera phone...bad quality...but i'll post them up anyway...and i was at the side seat...so mind you...tak clear lar that...haha

ok ok!!! photos here~

We just reached~

Wide Angled Shot

The crowd slowly spilling in..

Stars!

Hmm..guess i was bored..

New video up...

2007-08-25T10:45:00.000-07:00

Recording the Guitar parts for the song... =)

Videos of Recording

2007-08-18T02:58:00.000-07:00

This lip of mine is pierced

2007-08-18T00:40:00.000-07:00

and yes...like the title suggests~
i've pierced my lip...if all of you were wondering if its painful...no...ahaha...
even when the guy pierced it...it doesn't hurt...it hurts more when someone hits you hard...
these guys were my professionals of choice. Creative Body Piercing (click me) . These guys are
the best in NSW, Australia. So good for me....next would be a tattoo...just thinking what to get...

and on Friday the 17...i had a recording in the studio...1 word for it. speechless....hahaha....
the studio is beautiful..its actually located in my college...its the best studio in the college as well as the most expensive...it's about 1.2 million aussie dollars..excluding the design of the room as well as the recording hall and other equipments..like the speakers, macs, couch, flooring...well
you get what i mean...i did the guitars...and on the coming monday..i'll be goin in again
to do my vocals as well as the basslines and additional guitars...

The Console is huge!! i think its either 64 or 72 channels amongst everything else bout it...its a
SSL 9000k Series Concolse...beautiful!!! haha...and very expensive...With Genelec Far Field and Near Field speakers...as well as 5.1 Surround speakers...tons of outboard gear...a nice couch...
3 chairs...beautiful carpet...beatles plushies looking over us...haha...

Oh!!! almost forgot..i also bought a Native Instrument Guitar Rig 2 plus Foot Controller...its
really rad!! =) worth the money i invested upon...its in the photo...hehe..

so here are some photos for you to look at..be patient and wait for it to load..i know there's a lot...
so sabar ya... =)

oh...there're also videos available...just head to youtube.com... CLICK ME!!!
so yeah...do check out the videos..more will be posted soon...there are more photos on my multiply site... bryanlimus.multiply.com (click me) ...so there you go...i know...i'm kinda like
promo ing myself...hehe..but hey..that's the fun part right..muahahaha

cheers
bryan

2nd day - you would notice that my lip is swollen

My roomie Ejai - Setting the drum set up

Photo Session - After the recording, posing with the engineers

Taking a break

That's Sudar. Our Engineer.

That's me at the back & Mahek. Ass. Engineer. hehehe

Yours truly. Bryan Limus.

My rig. MacBook(thanks mum), Yamaha AES620(thanks mum),
and the NI Guitar Rig 2 plus Foot Controller(thanks bryan)

no comments

Me rehearsing and practicing on the couch.

Windstruck

2007-08-18T00:37:00.000-07:00

Windstruck
(based on the movie 'Windstruck')

Let me whisper to you my dear departed
The wind speaks of you over and over
This heart is weak without strength
My skin is pale unless the sun shines again

Let me embrace you once again
Please i beg the angels to let me
But all my pleas fell on the deaf
Hush...The world fell silent on me

The piano sounds with white keys
I'll show you my true self
My feelings are longing for you
Just once more I'd like to hold you

Counting down the days until the day
I will see the same silly smile again
My heart beats weaker and weaker
But stronger and stronger for you my love

Was watching this movie...damn...made me cry...normal lar..the emotional me..
guess not man enough..aha...
i had so much emotions goin thru me i could write this song in less than an hour...
something i haven't done before...i guess next time i wanna write a song..i should
be filled with passion and emotion..well it doesn't have to be sad or teary...it could be
happy and joyful...but please..spare me the name calling..like wuss and sappy boy...haha

thanks

cheers from aussie
bryan

I GOT STABBED!!

2007-08-08T07:45:00.000-07:00

Bernard Hiew!! Nah! its done!! muahaha...now to find people to stab!

INSTRUCTION :
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italicize the statements that you WISH are true.

Leave the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse.
10) I am totally smart.
11) I’ve broken someone’s bones.
12) I am paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldnt survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I am always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone.
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I dont hate anyone.
35) I am a pretty good dancer.
36) I am completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone.
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I have rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I have called the cops on a friend before.
46) I am not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I am shy around members with the opposite sexs.
49) I have made a move on a friends, significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend. (right~)
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I âm obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) Plan on achieving a major goaldream.
69) I am proficient in a musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I cant live without black eyeliner.
79) I dont know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. (YES!! I THINK ITS BERNARD"S FAULT)
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I've written in.
86) I can stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I am an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.

Nicole Ong
Denise Ong
Natasha Lim
Michelle.C
John Wong
Erin Wong

6..just in case no one reads my blog...haha

New Photos

2007-07-21T05:02:00.000-07:00

I'm lazy to upload so many photos on my blog or even post an update..

a quickie...so far...i'm doin fine!! its really cold here!! bout 5-8 degrees celcius during the nite and early morning...
i'm studying in SAE Byron Bay...but staying off campus...bout 15 min drive away...a nice and quiet town called Brunswick Heads..it has a really beautiful river and also a super beautiful beach...
its so windy..and the waves are intense!! beautiful..haha..but nothing beats Pulau Sapi and Malaysian FOOD!!!! miss it so much!!

my photos are on my multiply... bryanlimus.multiply.com
so yeah..so far that's it...really lazy to type long long..

for those who do not have my number..here it is
+6143 371 1239

oh...the assigemtns are killing me!!!! too many..and i'm gonna die soon~~ =(

cheers...
bryan

Happy Birthday Bryan

2007-06-25T04:01:00.000-07:00

I'm 24 and i need to learn how to grow up more...hehe
anyway Happy Birthday to me..for those who dunno..
i lost weight and build some muscles...notice~ some~~..haha
i tried... =)

here are some photos of the 24 years old bryan john limus spending his time in starbucks carrefour subang jaya...happily online, surfing and chatting away...haha

cam whoring should be made a national hobby...haha... =)
now u all know how i look like...handsome not?

And i threw you the obvious

2007-06-10T08:24:00.000-07:00

*This video is meant for persons above a mature age. Seriously.

threw you the obvious and you flew

with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me.
but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.
so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.
oh well. apparently nothing.
you don't see me.
you don't see me at all.

There Is - Boxcar Racer

2007-06-04T18:57:00.000-07:00

To you from me, i hope it works out well in the end.

This vacation's useless
These white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought
on this 13 hour drive
I miss the grinded concrete
where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing
In the glow of our headlights.

I've given a lot of thought
to the nights we used to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast

I faintly remember breathing
on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you,
but you swear you loved me more

Do you care if I
don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
pretend its all okay
That there someone out there
who feels just like me
There is

Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought
of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter
in every single word
There will be a hidden message
about a boy that loves a girl

Do you care if I
Don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
Or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
Pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there
Who feels just like me
There is

Do you care if I
Don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight
Or will you think of me?
Will I shake this off?
Pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there
Who feels just like me

Do you care if I
Don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight
Or will you think of me
Will I shake this off
Pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there
Who feels just like me
There is

Farewell to the Army

2007-05-13T05:30:00.000-07:00

Farewell to the Army
Till our paths collide again
The melodies continues to run
Let nothing be foreign
In your new quest to win
The many more battles
Let it begin

To Knil Army.
It was great and memorable while it lasted.
All the best in your future endeavor.
All hail the Army called Knil.

Please...Just...Take Off My Skirt.

2007-05-10T12:29:00.000-07:00

Fireflies and Something Something

Presents

Venue: KL JAM ASIA
Price: RM12 + BUTTON BADGE
Time: 8.30pm
Date: 29 June 2007

Be there or be there but squarer~

2007-04-29T21:08:00.000-07:00

I remembered watching this video 4 years ago when i was still goin out with someone. As in a significant other. That was then..but this post is not bout that..its bout this video...the music and its lyrics...beautiful yet brutally honest...every time i listen to this song i feel like tearing...coz somehow it just connects with what i feel...bout friendships, mistakes, love, hate, pride, joy, money, family...to sum it up. Life....

Its tough when we start losing ourselves and the identity that we thought was our own. In the end, you ask yourself...what have i become..did the things we achieve really brought us what we really wanted...the satisfaction of living the life we've dreamed of?

I never did live up to my dreams..i've started them up and ended with me being used by others...all these while..i've been living other ppl's dreams...not my own...such a foolish fool...
helping achieve theirs...but forgetting my own...forfeiting and fall short of what i'm really destined to achieve...

i remembered telling myself this 1 day..it wasn't a fine day at all...i said "no more!!".."what the f*** am i doing with my life? " ..."what the hell are people doin with my personal life!??"
Love life was a mess...working life was a mess...personal life was a mess...mind you..i'm still having to clear these mess..but slowly..1 by 1 i'm settling them..but then again..as i try to settle 1..another pops out like candies...i mean..haha...its like damn mentos...but these mentos dun make you happy...they create more complications...doesnt matter...i've found the love of my life...and i'm thankful for that...really thankful...music has really brought me out of lotsa things...i love gigging..performing...its fun..and its so fulfilling!!

in the end...i know what i need to achieve...i can't see the future...if i could then i'd be god right...dun ask me what do i see myself doin in the next 5 years...goals goals goals...screw them...i know what i'm gonna be doin in the next 5 years...get married!! that's what...

oh yeah...i'm not pissed..haha...just wanted to rant like foamy the squirrel...he's cute..and he's dirty...really dirty...haha...here's the video and the lyrics to it....i hope you'll enjoy it as much as i do...

bryan

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Photos~

2007-04-25T21:09:00.000-07:00

The year of the pig~

New found friends

Bboy Be

more photos...well more like 3 photos..haha...

i was bored..so i tried~

2007-04-25T20:28:00.000-07:00

Dinner in the dark. No electricity.

Sunrise view from the balcony.

The cat was sleeping with me.

Family portraits on the living room wall.

Was breaking alone. Needed some self motivation.

And so you know..i was bored...so decided to do some nonsense post...quite fun oso lar..haha
and some photos too...of my posing...wonderful leh..

Layer One:On The Outside
Name : Bryan John Limus
Birth Date : 24 June 1983
Current status : Wonderfully attached (see if u wanna believe me)
Eye Colour : Dark Brown
Hair Colour : Brownish black
Righty or Lefty : Righty (tho i prefer to be a Lefty)

Layer Two :On The Inside
Your Heritage : Austronesian, Malayo-Polynesian ethno-classification. I'm Kadazan. (plus a another 50% of hakka chinese blood..hehe)
Your Fears : Getting obese, Losing hope, no more hands or fingers..lotsa lar!
Your Weakness : what weakness?
Your Perfect Pizza : Why must it be pizza? I prefer fries. Anyway..any pizza will do for me..i just eat..

Layer Three :Yesterday, Today , Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First thing when I wake up : Hmm...i hear the alarm..need to call someone...
Your Bedtime : bedtime? hah...anytime i feel sleepy. Excluding noon naps..i dun take naps..
Your Most Missed Memory : hmmm..lots..gigs..touring with a band..playing with really good musicians..lots...

Layer Four : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Low Fat Milk or Light Coke
McDonald or Burger King : Burger King!!
Single or Group Dates : Single..nicer and more private...
Adidas or Nike : Adidas or PUMA!!!!
Tea or Nestea : Tea.
Chocolate or Vanilla : vanilla!
Cappuccino or Coffee : I prefer tea...

Layer Five : Do You..
Smoke : long time ago..beyond time and matter...
Curse: Hell No..hahahaha
Take a shower : i love showering..i just hate the time it takes to finish..haha
Have a crush : currently..nope...hehe
Think you've been in love: Been?
Go to school : To Uni..soon..doin my double degree...
Want to get married : Yes!
Believe in yourself : Most of the time..but i got someone who whole hearted believes in me.
Think you are a health freak : I break dance..counts?

Layer Six : In The Past Month
Drank alcohol : yeah..
Gone to the mall : yeah~.
Been on stage : lots of times dy~.
Eaten sushi : nope.
Dyed your hair : won't be changing hair color till i get dreadlocks.

Layer Seven : Have You Ever..
Played A Stripping Game : nope...wishing
Changed Who You Were To Fit In : yeah...long time ago..now i'm honest..sorta~.

Layer Eight : Age
You are Hoping To Be Married : 29. 12 Dec 2012

Layer Nine : In a Girl/Guy
Best Eye Colour : Brownish black
Best Hair Colour : Jet Black.
Short Hair or Long Hair : Haha...short or long..its up to her..as long as she loves it..i'll love it...

Layer Ten : What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago : holding my shit in..need to poop badly
1 Hour Ago : fixing my pc
4.5 Hours Ago : just woke up.
1 Month Ago : rotting at home.
1 Year Ago: working in a studio.

Layer Eleven : Finish The Sentence
I Love : the love of my life, God, my music, my guitars, my life, myself, my family..lotsa
I Feel : like shitting!!
I Hate : sweating too much!
I Hide : lotsa.
I Need : lose more weight and get a job and enjoy more.

Your Hand in Mine

2007-04-17T10:15:00.000-07:00

Stay by my side
And I swear things will turn out all right
You and I
We're meant to be together
You and Me
Our hearts as one

I miss you
I need you
I love you
So put your hand in mine
I will make you mine

Hold on to me
This will be the ride of our lives
You and me
We're meant to be together
My Love
Our hearts are one

bryan limus

New Old photos

2007-04-01T22:47:00.000-07:00

I just uploaded some photos of past years..
Knil Army's first recording in SAE Malaysia Studios...you can catch me and albert sleeping coz by the time it was my turn to record..it was 4am in the morning...explains the stone and sleepy look...uhm..Mia Palencia (she's my cousin by the way)..Melina from Tempered Mental..she's a really really sweet girl.. =)
and a couple more photos of my friends.. oh the link...yeah...its
bryanlimus.multiply.com
click on it...its quite fun to watch..haha..i think..
so yeah...enjoy~

Movies and movies alike

2007-03-28T22:28:00.000-07:00

I've been watching a few movies lately...
300, The Prestige, National Lampoon:Van Wilder 2, Borat, and a few animes..here and there...
300 was a great movie...national lampoon is bloody funny...Borat is totally wrong!!! its such a stupid movie~!!! my god..wasted my time watching it...i kept on skipping and fast forwarding..
pathetic movie..mebe some would love it...but to me...nah~~ terrible~~~ its worse than Jack Ass...

Been playing some games here and there....Street Fighter, Pro Evolution Soccer and a few other games...just cause i'm bored...but i have been helping out in he house chores and stuff..sweeping the floor..wiping the walls...hanging the laundries...here and there..nothing big big...
and u know wat...doin nothing is fine..but not having money is totally a bummer situation to be in
..fortunately...i have the wonderful internet to keep me company..but for how long?? the internet is only so big~~

i'll most prolly be headed to byron bay in july..if all goes well..and i got the finances to get me there...and i so want a MACBOOK!!! but then agian..no money mar~~ sigh...i guess back to the old pc...well...see how...

enough of my ranting... if any of you are bored and doin nothing...watch Foamy the Squirrel at www.illwillpress.com or happy tree friends..whichever is better...or watch every youtube video there is...if you have a fast internet connection...

bryan

2007-03-20T02:57:00.000-07:00

Taken from Lim Kit Siangs blog.

http://blog.limkitsiang.com/?p=71#more-71
Everything that is written here is not mine but the property of the owner's blog mentioned above.

Class of “forgotten Malaysians”

Hi Kit Siang

I’m not sure if you’ll be reading this, or even why exactly I’m writing to you; but like other times after reading about the happenings in Malaysia through your blog, I am saddened and moved from deep within.

Allow me to introduce myself. I was born in Johor, in 1983 - making me 24 years of age this year. From a young age, from primary (or standard one) I studied in Singapore. Instantly, this placed me into a group of ‘forgotten Malaysians’ of which I still belong to today - do read on. I did not study in Singapore by choice, my parents decided to see put me there when I was 7, because being part of the Malaysia school system when the British system was employed -they were alarmed by the perceived drops in the levels of education in Malaysia at that time - and they really wanted me to grow up speaking good English…and Singapore was the closest country to have its curriculum in English at that time. I’m sure you can appreciate the incredible irony in Malaysia reversing on its decision years ago and teaching Math and Science in English now. And while I am most capable of invoking my own commentary and discourse on the subject and others like it, I shall resist the urge and refrain from doing so on this occasion, as I nevertheless will find myself doing throughout the rest of this email - as each instance of the incredulous policies and politicians that dominate our country come up.

But I digress. I studied in Singapore a full ten years, travelling DAILY from Johor Bahru, not residing in Singapore because, I guess, my parents wanted me to retain my unique Malaysian identity and “Malaysianess”. I do not have fond memories of my time in the country, although I did well at school, I guess, I dislike autocratic and freedom-curbing societies where the rights of the individual are sacrificed for the whims of the elected collective in the name of nation-building. That is not to say I do not understand the need for such measures at certain times - but I suppose I do not function well in countries where such practices are the norm.

At the end of my high school studies in Singapore, I made the decision to return to Malaysia. To study at a private college in KL. I had tried on past occasions when I was in high school, to do so, only to find out that I was not eligible to do so because I did not take Bahasa Melayu as my primary subject. As a result of studies in Singapore, where English was the medium of instruction and Mandarin was my ‘mother tongue’, I cannot speak fluent Malay to this day nor do I have the ability to write in it. Therefore, according to some quarters, I am not considered Malaysian. But was I to blame? I remained in KL a full 3 years, was one of the top students at my college for a worldwide course, until it was time for me to pursue my education overseas.

I love Malaysia. I consider myself patriotic. I was and remain a staunch defender of its uniqueness and the beauty of the country and its people. Well, most of them. I grew up reading The Star, NSTP and the like. I read most of our former PM’s books and took in every shred of reasoning he and others gave for the obvious disparity between the races. I quoted and defended the NEP on the classic grounds the policy being of “wealth creation” and not “wealth redistribution.” My family and friends would laugh, sniggle and sigh. Up till then, I was colour-blind, but as case after case of blatant discrimination occurred, our dear politicians made me unsure for a good deal of time.

Then I made the move overseas…and realised what I had left behind. I had left behind a country full of life and colour, of some of the best examples of racial harmony and understanding anywhere in the world. Malaysia at her best is truly a beautiful country. But living in a different country opened my eyes to what I had also left behind; a flawed and made-up democracy, weak institutions, institutionalized racism, hypocrisy and worse of all - a country living in denial. The former can be defended on the grounds of “a country in progress”, the latter is indefensible. I liken it to a child growing out of his adolescence. When a young child behaves badly, you can excuse him on the grounds of “he doesn’t know any better.” For example, if he throws tantrums and has no regard for authority, that can be instructed in the child as he grows. But the realisation and acknowledgement of his wrongdoing is vitally important - as he gets older, the same excuses simply cannot be sustained. Granted, we are a young country - but it has been close to 50 years of denial. Of the fact that it is a democracy. That its media is free. That its institutions are fair. That everyone has similar opportunities. That it respects and abides by the Constitution and rule of law. That there exists freedom of religion and speech - and I’m just brushing the tip of the iceberg here. Doubtless, some would say I have been ‘corrupted by Western influences’ - but to confine such basic human elements to a Western nature is the classic disservice that Malaysians do unto themselves. At the expense of the discomfort and fear of change, such people choose to remain myopic and backward.

It took a lot for me to critically examine my own country for its failings and admit to them. To study political science and understand the true meanings and contexts of fundamental political concepts, frameworks of democracy, rule of law and associated concepts. I measured where Malaysia was in relation to these fundamental principles - and the result was a gut-wrenching, painful admission from a proud Malaysian that his country wasn’t all he thought it was - or likely to be if the culture of apathy and denial prevails.

As long as the ‘minority’ ethnic community in Malaysia continues to remain inert, apathetic, uneducated and disempowered to evoke even the most fundamental of changes (by voting in the right manner), wherein lies the mechanism and hope for change? How many more UMNO general assemblies do we need to see the true intentions of the ruling party? That last word is deliberately in the form of the singular. If only the MCA, Gerakan, MIC etc had more guts - and stop just surviving - and start living.

My intentions and comments do not come out of a desire to establish a race-dominated government of any sort. It is to create a truly representative and responsible government, one that recognises the importance of the abidance and adherence to the sovereign Constitution, that respects the rule of law, where all have access to equal educational, job and wealth opportunities and is colour-blind to the extent that it does not discriminate on the grounds of race, religion, sexual orientation – and yet, celebrates the incredible cultural diversity our country has been blessed with - and not use it to instil fear and bigotry in its people. It is in fact, repulsive and disappointing to me that close to 50 years after independence, we continue to have political parties that are divided along racial lines and not on solid ideology and sound policies.

Until then, what IS there for a Malaysian like me to go back to? Pray tell. I belong to a “minority” ethnic group, I do not speak strong BM and as a result, I’m sure the opportunities in my own country are vast indeed. Yet, I was the one top students at my university, hold a B.Econs (Hons), a M.A (International Relations), have been published academically and am working for the Australian government in delivering policies and bottom-line savings to the economy. And I’m just at the beginning of my career. I say all this not out of pride, but out of disappointment - where I want to be and can be most effective, my land of birth - I have little future.

I have great admiration and utmost respect for your work and all that you’ve laboured/struggled for Kit Siang. Sure you’ve made mistakes - we all have - but I respect the way you’ve come out of them. I’ve always belonged to a class of ‘forgotten Malaysians’ - once when I studied in Singapore, because I can’t speak BM, because I left my country to study abroad and haven’t returned. But I haven’t forgotten my country; I never will. But as much as I love Malaysia, does it remember me…and the many others like me? I do not expect an answer to that question.

I’m not expecting a response - I guess I now understand why I’ve taken the trouble to write such a long email to you. I want you to know, you have people on your side of the struggle. That as much as it holds nothing for me to go back, perhaps one day, I will…because at the heart of me, I am Malaysian…and stand for all things truly Malaysian.

Kind regards,

W.O.

primary school...

2007-03-19T21:56:00.000-07:00

currently listening to: Emery's discography
currently reading: some worship book by tim hughes
currently playing: dofus and some other games...
status: happily taken.....into the life of boredom....hahaha

so i was goin thru my folder full of my certificates...result transcripts..and stuff i'm really proud of...and some other stuff...really made me laugh so much!!

i went thru my primary school's report card...primary 3 to be exact...3E hahaha..that was my class...miss all my classmates...it was so fun...to reminisce my childhood...the fun i had...and also things that i never noticed then...

this was my primary school...
SRJK Chung Hwa Kota Kinabalu..its one of the top primary schools in KK...i only noticed that when i was in high school...i was in a top school...and came out with awesome UPSR results...4 A, 1 B and 1 C...B and C were the mandarin subject..din really like dat one..but yeah...haha...i din even bother studying properly~~ muahaha...

and then i saw this....my grades...
did you see dat!! Seni which is Art and also Muzik..which is music...C !!!!! i got a C for music...hahaha!!! i was laughing my head off...look at me now..an audio engineer...and a professional musician...hahaha...was laughing so so hard when i saw it....how ironic can life be eh...well for art..i still suck at art until now..haha...

and another thing i took notice of...my height...in 1 year's time i was able to grow 10cm!! actually...that's not a lot lar..but heck..haha..not too bad right..

so basically..yeah...that's my update for now..

i'll be getting my IELTS results this Friday...hope i get good results..or at least just a band 6...a bit panicky....then i'll be applying for my uni dy...
headed for the June/July intake...hopefully i can make in on time...so yeah..will be gone for 1 year..Byron Bay here i come~
Click here for photos of the uni area
Click here for the studios available

well...so far dats the updates i have...now u all have to wait for a few more months until my next update...as u all know i am kinda malas~ haha...thank you for reading... =)

have a nice fall....
bryan

6 weird things bout me...

2007-03-08T04:06:00.000-08:00

i got tagged by grace lau!!...wonderful~~
this is so bleh~~

anyway..i'm supposed to tell 6 weird things bout myself..i dun even know if i have that many weird things bout myself...adui~~

1. i'm always worried that i'm too fat but i dun do anything bout it...
i dunno if you call that weird..but hey..its close...haha...

2. i tend to talk to myself sometimes without knowing...now that's freaky not weird..
but watever works..haha...but who doesnt talk to themselves...

3. my hair grows very fast...no kidding..my hair grows faster than normal..in like 4 months i have like medium length hair...from like a normal short guy hair...

4. i love cleaning my ears...everytime after is shower..i would have to clean my ear...seriously...so my ear is really clean...dun have any build ups of ear wax..since i was a kid...
kinda obsessed with cleaning it...hehe..so i'm really clean eh...

5. i love reading..on the contrary to popular belief that i do not read..i would like to say that's wrong..i love reading..i read a lot...from books to brochures to the stuffs on the internet...
so yeah...boo on you who tot i am just a dude with no brains..haha...

6. i'm a musician and i hate practicing...i know some ppl say i'm quite good when i play...but the truth is i dun practice..i hate practicing!!! so i dun practice...so i'm not really dat good of a musician...=) tho i hope its otherwise~

who i would like to tag...god knows...
1. melisa ann
2. jason han
3. kurt cobain
4. esther wee
5. bubuchaha
6. dave grohl

New videos of The Alpenglow

2006-11-30T01:03:00.000-08:00

Campus City Acoustic Nite was a hit~
Hope they'll have another before i leave...hahaha...
Anyway...the videos of my performance are up...
check it out on www.youtube.com and search for bryan limus campus city or you can head to jasonhancs.multiply.com...thanks for
mr. han for serving the file...it's been a great time...i guess this would be my last gig here in KL...

Thank you to everyone of my friends who came to support me that nite..it was amazing of you guys...and special thanks to campus city for inviting me...thank you to everyone who made it happen so well..and to the crowd of people...packed out crowd of people...thanks for supporting and the wonderful claps..haha...

so ppl...do give me a buzz or catch me for a drinking session on you before i leave for KL...thank you.. =)

God bless

My last few weeks in West Malaysia

2006-11-23T01:19:00.000-08:00

Currently Listening to:- A whole awful lot of music since i gotten my walkman phone
Currently Reading:- Sand Storm and a bunch of back dated guitar mags
Currently Feeling:- Annoyed and Irritated

Alright...i havent been blogging for a while..but who would miss me in this cyber world anyway...
the next few weeks would my be last few weeks in west malaysia. namely subang. so if you havent said good bye to me..then do it quick...for those who din know..i'll be flying back to KK to have a long break from everything...including work..man..
sometimes u dun wanna get sucked in into the politics..well..u get dragged in..anyway...the matter at hand...my flight would be after christmas..most probably..
havent bought it yet..so i dun mind people sponsoring my trip back..but more importantly..i need help in shipping my stuff back to kk...if anyone know's a cheapers alternative to air courier..please!!! let me know..thank you =)
oh..and if you have any boxes or know of any place that has boxes...tell me please...
i need them..to pack my stuff...

next week would be my last week working...thank god..i love the freedom of lazying around...i seriously do prefer free lance work than a normal working life...it sucks..honestly! and its terrible..it takes a toll on everything..so make sure your boss are good! and the pay is reasonable..and the work doesnt run out of your job scope...talking bout loyalty..well..loyalty only comes to those who treat you with respect and honor you...not those who takes advantage of you..damn...they do not deserve anything more than what they give...which is bull..

next week..wed...29 nov...8pm onwards...there'll be an acoustic nite that'll i'll be playing in... surf www.campuscity.org.my for more details...be there to support me and also the event..it'll be cool...

shorter post this time..nothing deep nor profound..just simplicity...
so take care and dun die easily...there's so much things to see, feel, touch, hear, taste, understand and imagine for you to die easily...coz i remembered someone saying this... if suicide or dying is so easy..i guess living is so much easier...hmm...wonder if that's even correct in the first place...

freefallme
bryan

Proud to be a SABAHAN~~~!!!!

2006-10-01T20:14:00.000-07:00

Have you ever asked or heard people asking,
whether Sabahans still live on the jungle, hunt for
food and wear clothing made out of leaves?

If I was asked so, I would proudly say yes.(Cuba
imagine Marsha AF2 pakai Nipah leaves skirt
sama Coconut bra) hehe..

When you as a Sabahan start to feel low just
because you’re from Sabah, these facts would
make you change your mind:

We have the second largest International airport in
Malaysia. While other’s might not even have any.
We have three major airports, while others might not have one.

Car fuel is the cheapest here.
We have two official cities, KK and Sandakan and
soon Tawau, while others might only have a town.

We are still the reason why tourist comes to
Malaysia, for our mount Kinabalu.

Two out of the top three of the sexiest girl in
Malaysia are from Sabah(Daphne Iking and Amber Chia) according to FHM.

The whole Philippine country doesn’t envy
Malaysia. They envy Sabah.

Sipadan Island, need I explain?

Everybody say’s Mokhtar Dahari is the main
reason Malaysian football team qualified for the
Olympics, football event in the 80’s. With all due
respect, the two goals are scored by Hassan Sani
and James Wong, both Sabahan. Not forgetting the
man who kept Malaysia at bay, Peter Rajah, also a
Sabahan as the goalie.

The most air travelers are from Sabah. Almost all
Sabahan have atleast traveled once or twice with
airplane, compared to the west Malaysians.
We have our own daily newspaper, Daily Express
and Sabah Times.

Every time there’s a reality show, our contestant
always reaches respectful level. AF, Blast-Off etc.

We live in harmony, not just with Malay, Indian and
Chinese, but also with Kadazan, Dusun, Bajau,
Murut, Rungus etc. The term Sabah truly Asia is
more like it.

Most of us Sabahan speaks at least 4 different
language.

This is just to name a few, but despite all this, we
are still proud to be Malaysian. Happy belated
SABAH Day! (16 September 2006)

The songs we sing, the pain it brings

2006-09-19T20:17:00.000-07:00

Currently Listening to:- They Will Kill Us All, Anything local!~
Currently Reading:- Newspaper, The Lincoln Lawyer - Michael Connelly

on sunday i had my first ever pedicure session...whoa..i think i'll do it again..i liked it..but a bit expensive lar..haha...once a month..not too bad i guess...maybe a manicure would be nice~ haha..
did it together with tasha..we had the same package together...some AHA thing...but it was nice nonetheless...hehe...thanks tasha~~ =)

my knee is fine so far...so i think it';ll be safe to break dance and cheerlead..but not any heavier impacting sports like basketball...so far i've cut down on the pain killers and muscle relaxant...
not good for health if too much intake of controlled drugs..

so yeah..that's that...nothing much else i guess...

Broken Legs and Mended Hearts..

2006-09-18T18:58:00.000-07:00

Currently Listening to:- Uprising Festival Sampler, Underoath - Writing on the Walls
Reading:- Nothing

Ladies and Gentlemen...

would like to inform everyone that~~~~
i busted my right knee..haha...went for an x ray yesterday..which was a monday...
thank god i din bust it too badly...doc said my knee cap is intact..no bone fractures..only ligament injury..so on muscle relaxants and pain killers now...

but so far..should be able to heal in time for cheerleading...muahahaha..
=)
majulah sukan untuk negara....

The books i've read, the songs i sang

2006-09-10T21:37:00.000-07:00

Currently Reading:- The Partner by John Grisham
Books Read since last post:- The Broker by John Grisham
Currently Listening to:- Blue October - Into the Ocean, Underoath - Writing on the Walls, Boys Likes Girls album, Punk Goes 90's album, and probably whatever there is in between...

Well...its been awhile since i last posted..as u know i'm not really a blog kinda person..nothing happening in my life is worth blogging at all..somewhat...
Acts church is currently having their Acts Games month...so 4 teams are vying for the champions title and also for the merit award..which my team - the pink panthers won last year...
so far 3 games have been played and we've won 2...which is Futsal and Volleyball...hahhaa..awesome..next one on the line is Basketball...we will win!! yesh!!
i've got some scrapes here and there..surprisingly no muscle ache despite the amount of effort and energy put into the games...looks like i've became fitter..haha...so everyone..excercise often..it really helps..mebe should excercise everyday..it helps even FASTER....i'm a testament to that...haha

anyway...some news...i've somehow been offered to continue my work here in my current job..
they offered me a better package deal..sorta...which includes accomodation...i mean that's a big deal...but still verbal..nothing on paper yet...but i'm really keen on it..i wanna study..just chill a bit...working life has be too ardeous and spirit breaking..i'd like a change of pace and environment...so i dun think i will be taking up the offer to work more...its bout the money anymore...i'm living a life that i dun like...killing myself...so i rather not...

more pressing issues...i'm currently weighed at 75-76kg...for some of u who dunno anything bout my weight issues...i was about 85kg and above last year till early this year...so u can do the math and know that i've lost lotsa weight and pretty fast..great news...there's hope for everyone...now..it's time to build some muscles..

nothing much been up actually...had diarrhea the whole of last weekend...fell terribly ill as well...
so yeah...stuck at home most of the time recuperating apart from work..that's it i guess...

so till next time...oh..there new photos on my flickr..check it out lar.. some nice photos of ave members in it.. =)

bryan

of movies, books and pornstars

2006-07-31T00:55:00.000-07:00

Been Listening to: Don Ross on youtube.com
Books that i've finished reading: Rule of Four, Memoirs of a Geisha.
Currently Reading: Life of Pi
Currently Listening: Nature and Mother Earth
movies i've watched: Fast and Furious: Tokyo Drift, Jasmine Women, slither(dun bother watching), ....can't remember...haha
games i'm currently playing: winning eleven PES, Call of Duty 2...

i've been blogging...yeah..i noticed that..more than what i normally do...coz i think mebe its time for me to contribute more for ppl to read...not saying that i'm superb in writing..haha..dun even think i'm close to that..

anyway...some may noticed that i've been reading a lot recently...but the actually truth is...i love reading and i read a lot...i know most of you will either laugh or scoff me by saying..."bryan...you actually read.."
i actually read more than an average malaysian...magazines, books, novel, online artcles, everything..even brochures or the ingredients information on a chocolate wrap...so unfortunate for you all...i not only rock...but i'm almost very intelligent..haha...

anyway..a tough week has gone by...it was utterly insane...read my previous post...anyway...having lost all my files and photos and watever other things i had...i'm pretty devastated...btu tried to be strong...psyche myself up...telling myself its nothing...haha...still doesnt really work...

i've got nothing much to post...just tot i dropped by and give a post boost~....nothing much on my mind..coz its ever cluttered with thoughts and nonsense...soyeah...hahah...like dat lor...

so i'll sign with by saying........." never say dinosaur! "

cheers
bryan

hoenstly honesty is what i'm striving

2006-07-21T02:08:00.000-07:00

helo...

i was reading some stuff...more like the review of battle of the bands melaka..haha..
i kena kutuk nicely~ coz apparently i over played...hmm..more like over moved..haha
i moved a lot..jump around and apparently made myself and the band look band...
well i guess i did..haha..and almost hit esther with my bass...lucky she din get hit...stupid me..

"...but i know they are tight, Ave was ok but the bassist a bit over..."

"...If talking about overracting.. i only remember there was a participating band with the bassist was totally overracting in the BOTB competition.. if u really went there.. you could see this bassist doing Jumping Kung Fu Kick.. and tried to jump over the 4x12 amplifier but couldn't then the amplifier jatuh on the floor... it was a disgrace.. and this kind of ppl really make me feel he mencacatkan the whole band's image.. and he turns his bass all around until his bass' neck nearly hit his own vocalist.... I wonder how will it be if the neck really hits the vocalist....

Live performance is live performance..
Music oso follow the mood.. slowly build out.. ur live performance have to be equal to the mood of ur songs.. it is like just singing a normal rock songs then u act like Wong Fei Hong.. infact, that is not a Wong Fei Hong's song oso... aiiiii and out of all the members.. only bassist liek that.....

make some of the ppl with me there said "oh my god, what kind of... is this?" ..."

basically yeah..haha..i have to learn to do things at the right venue and time...poor me kena kutuk for having so much fun..haha..but anyway...i also noticed that when i perform i lack emotions...when i sing i dun communicate well enough...i guess i have to learn to be a better performer..well if any of you think otherwise..then thank you... =)
but most of u think i need improvement (which i think so too..haha) then i will strive to improve on watever i have time left here in west malaysia..haha...

God bless the music
bryan

I would like to apologize to my sweetheart~

2006-07-20T18:45:00.000-07:00

Dear Tasha,

I'm sorry that i have been busy of late. And the nights during the week hasn't had a good ending as late. I wanna say i'm sincerely sorry for how things turned out. Forgive me~

i am sorry....

sincerely me,
bryan

i should be posting

2006-07-12T18:18:00.000-07:00

i just thought that i should dump in a short post since i'm in the mood for it..
recently i've been joinin the magnanimous crew for their break dance sessions near my place...i mean i've been breaking since late last year..but improvements were slow..due to my physical lack thereof...i can't even do basic moves...and even if i can..they look darn ugly..its been more than 6 months..and i'm still at the bottom level...where as the others could do insane things within that period of time frame...starting from zilch...probably coz i';ve been lazy and lotsa thing haven't been easy goin...

but i am gonna strive now..to be able to do freezes and handstands..and at least the windmill by year end...i need to push myself...push harder and harder to attain the physizue that i need to build...then when i fly back KK..i can do it myself there..tho it'll be such a boring life when i'm back...no one pushing to do things like these anymore...

talking bout that..always feel down every time i think bout goin back to KK and leaving west malaysia for good...well...at least for now..unfortunate to some i know...fortunate to some yes..but most of all i'm gonna miss my friends and family here..honestly speaking..5 years being in subang has made subang somewhat my home...if only i could get a good job here..i wouldn't really mind...but i wanna continue my studies as well..from my diploma to degree...its really time for me to progress on...2 years or shorter degree course..when i come back i dun even know if i can get a good job..that pays well or at least decent...not 1300 or 1600..

but ultimately if i may say..i wanna be a producer for bands...helping bands of tomorrow carve their raw talents to polished gems for the music scene in the world...there's billions of bands around the world...so i guess there should be a market for malaysians to get out of malaysia...i wanna produce and mixed songs...discover new talents and giving bands and artist alike a chance to showcase their message and life stories...i too wanna start my own business...what's my product gonna be..well i'm not sure either...tourism..musical intruments..a music school..own fashion and clothing line...my own label..anything i dun mind...

anyway back to studies...i need money..and my family ain't rich...not at all..not even close...i wouldn't even say we're well to do...but we're a good family...and i have wonderful parents...and a brother of course..so i decided to take a bank loan..which i know is not a good choice at all...not a very wise choice i would say..but hey..no choice...which comes to a point where i ask myself...after i graduate..issit even possible for me to repay my loan...i'm gonna be borrowing money close to 80k...that's insane..plus the interest i would probably need to pay bout 120k...
i mean i'm just throwing figures but then again i have to prepare myself for the worst...

its insane..being in australia is not cheap..though it is the cheapest around...well..i mean in relative to educational quality...but heck...its so expensive!!! its insane...
well...enough of my bantering...i'm gonna start work now...my under paid job..but hey...can't complain too much..its already a miracle i have a job...

there are lots of updates...but i'll do dat at a later date.. =)
thanks for reading and look forward to my upcoming ep album.. =)

bryan

the alpenglow gig

2006-06-06T18:50:00.000-07:00

hey all...

the alpen glow will be playing on the 17th of june 2006 at inti college 20th carnival and fete de la musique...

inti would be in the morning..and the latter would be at nite...muahahha...can't wait..havent done solo in a long time now..i hope i dun sound too bad on the mic...i've been really sick last week..
so now my voice is gonna be croaking badly...darn~

hope it gets better soon...i'll be heading down to melaka this friday..gonna meet up with daniel lee..whom will be my room mate for the next 3 months or so..then we'll come down together this saturday..happening...gonna be dead tired...hope everything will turn out fine...

so yeah..that's update for now.. =)
thanks..

its been good...i think...

2006-05-21T22:16:00.000-07:00

hello,...

i've been doin well..forgive me for not even blogging often enough~....

in june i'll be performing on the 17th June.. in the morning i'll be playing at the Inti Carnival..
at nite i'll be playing at Fete de la musique in KL...both are currently in the process of getting confirmed..but it looks good...kinda~ haha

anyway,...i'm having the time of my life with tasha...we've been hanging out quite often...probably due to me being able to have more time to myself..muahahaha...we're doin good...for those of you who are interested in my private life...

anyway..i'll continue my post some other time...coz need to work...haha

thanks all~

aVe

2006-04-14T11:21:00.000-07:00

currently listening to:- Early Day Miners - Longwall

Sunday is the day where Ave will have our first audition and last audition for the Melaka MMU battle of the bands... i'm really confident we will at least pass the auditions.. =)

let me tell u a bit bout Ave...we have 5 members in the band..
Drums-Joshiam Chiam
Bass and Backing Vox-Bryan Limus
Guitars and Backing Vox-Nicky Woo
Guitars-Chuah
Main Vox-Esther "Claudia" Wee

How do we sound like? We sound like Paramore..and so far after forming the band since Feb...
We've wrote 1 song so far..its a really nice song..thanks to everyone in the band for putting the song together...it has yet to have a title...but it sounds cool..definitely...

Me? i'm not a bassist...but i'm starting to love playing the bass in a band like this...not the technical funk type..but the rock type...cool stuff...hehe...

and to Amplify..all the best to you guys too...we will pass the auditions together...muahaha and strike everyone dead..haha..

so yeah..that's my short post..
oh..i have resigned from current job..starting from next week i'll be working in a studio...hehe...so awesome...will do my best to work hard...God bless...
and i might be teaching guitar too...

have a nice fall,
bryan

i'm in love~ seriously i am....

2006-04-07T10:04:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to:- Underoath - The whole album

mood:- Alive *yawn* hahaha....

i've been having a swell time...
so here's a few updates...
1. i won't be working in AYA anymore..will be resigning in the month of April... but i found a new job..it's gonna be part time though...wont be earning much..so can't support my plans for world domination..or becoming a rockstar...anyway...but i'll still try to do my best...nevertheless...my new job would require me to work in a studio..i'll blog bout it soon...just to let you ppl now how's it like working in a studio...

2. i'm currently not single anymore...am goin out with an awesome girl...we have so much similarities...of course minus our age gap...i would never have imagine goin out with a girl younger than me..i mean 5 years younger than me...i know most of you would be shocked..but hey...we're enjoying each other's company...well i won't reveal too much... hehe...if you got any other questions u wanna ask me...ask me personally then..

3. i will not online as often as before..for obvious reasons...obviously! i dun have a pc and an internet connection...only the cyber cafe..and mebe my gf's notebook...

4. the alpenglow will not be able to output the album as early as i expected..due to financial constraints...but i will have lots more time to focus on writing my music.. =) thank you so much to those who supports me..

5. i'm involved in a lot of bands...
a. knil army
b. the alpenglow
c. aVe (its eva if spelled backwards..haha)
d. a dance and electronica fascination kinda thing... no name yet tho..

well folks...that's all the update for now...i'm actually forced to write an entry...but i dun mind..
i guess it's long over due...and since i dun online that often anymore...do drop me an email once in a while... at cheapskate417@excite.com ....

p/s to daniel lee...when in the world are you coming back? i can't wait for your ps2 to be in my house...we play PES alright...and i also want your notebook in my room man...haha..we can get WIFI..practice guitar all the way..and impersonate paul gilbert...

p/s to those who are offended by this post..my sincere apologies..

have a nice fall,
bryan limus

2006-03-26T22:04:00.000-08:00

currently listening to: absolute nothing but ambient noises. air-conds humming, computers buzzing, and the distant sound of music playing somewhere

feeling: ironic, found out, wonderful, depressed, shame, guilt, hate, bitterness, fear, afraid, frail, hurt, pain, high, low, magnificent, thankful, greatful, regretful, remorseful, alive, ashame, amazed, relieved, hated, slapped, reliving the past, looking into the future, anguish, hopeless, admonished, reprieved, discouraged, rebuked, demoralised, bemused, bewildered...............................but among all of these...loved

i wonder if it is possble to feel everything at once...and i found out that actually..i'm not a nice guy...i am cold hearted and my heart is hardened to people...i will not cry for people...well...it's for me to say and mebe for you to judge if you dare....
i find that humans are weak...that fatal flaw is always present in human beings...we may have the greatests minds in the whole world...but our hearts will always betray us...honestly..
great minds dun need great hearts...wrong-o~~!! what do u expect of it..haha...i'm always observing people..and i still say their eyes betray them a lot...haha...forget your goodie good actions..your eyes tell me the most...haha..but at least some of you are tryin to do something good for the human race....like hating each other..that's a good thing...be bitter to people..maybe you'll start appreciating early deaths that has plague this world recently...

oh if you think i hate people...haha..actually i dun...nah..i've too big of a heart to actually care or be bothered by...suckers~ hehe
i'm actually quite happy...today only lar..though i am bogged down by your typical ouches and stupids...but hey that's what life is about..
i'm gonna make this post shorter than the others..just wanna let u people know..thanks for caring and praying or even tryin to make me a better person.. =)
and girls...when u see me..please dun come near me..i'm very dangerous..i'll hurt u and cause grievious emotional injuries... thanks~ no harm done...no pain felt...

thanks again people,

have a nice fall,
bryan

me, you and everyone else

2006-03-23T18:36:00.000-08:00

Currently listening to: Hi my name is Mark podcast. (makes me wanna have my own podcast)

feeling: never felt worse

you know...life can get so up so high in the sky in 1 moment and then the same stupid sky will somehow find a oh-so-wonderful-way just to come crashing down on you...
i always remember people quoting "life is a roller coaster" ..but then again..a roller coaster ride is only a short burst of a moment.... life isn't.. it lasts until you die. for goodness sake...
there..said those things and i dun even feel any better...
oh well...blogs weren't meant to relieve us....i have been goin thru a few weeks of literal hell...
and occasional goodies...but still...when you're in hell goodies don't count for much you know.

it's so hard to breath nowadays...i'm atoning for my past sins..things that i regret so much i wish i could just change then right now...i've changed but then these things have been creeping back to drag me down to the grave...all the lies, the stupidity, the lust, the pain, the pride, the angers, the mis-managment....the everything! from the bad to the good...all of them were part and parcel of my life...yet none of them were present on my dying day...

the pain struck deep within me...only way to soothen the ache is when i play my guitar...my love for God has changed...honestly..to those who are reading this..it's not because i'm running away from God... i guess it's because i'm afraid of Him...i wanna get closer to Him...but in the end..when i look back all these past are dragging me in...

No! i dun want help from any of you...as if any of you can offer proper help...you can only pray for me...pray that my spirit will be at peace...i dun wanna die...but i guess that's imminent...
so No! your kind help is not wanted by the lifes of me...

i'm starting to be honest with myself...knowing my boundaries..i know i have fallen so far from grace...soon the truth will catch to me! i can feel it...haha...laughter..seems to easy...an easy way of covering up hurt and pain...the classic smile...another good way to cover up heart aches..
but our eyes...our eyes...they're the ones that always betray our inner most feelings...
all the comedies in the world can't help me...haha...irony of life...when i can joke so well but my like is a terrible joke...mebe when i'm 35 or so..i'll start getting sober...like those darn rockstars...
i read bout the velvet revolver..they dun drink, they dun party that hard anymore, and only 1 of them smoke..and they spend a quiant and quiet time before and even after their huge gigs or concerts...can u imagine that..i would love to do that every time or anytime man....

i wanna be sober everyday....care free and care less...down to earth...hugging the ground...
doing what i love the most...writing music...singing songs...playing around...swim..
beaches..sands...sky...sounds like i need a holiday..mebe i'm gonna plan for 1 in april or something...

yeah...i think that's what i need...a nice short break and sorta a holiday...haha

thanks for dropping

bryan

Kadazan 101 & Philosophy

2006-03-14T19:31:00.000-08:00

Currently Listening to: The Six Parts Seven - Where Are The Timpani Heartbeats
Mood: In Awe!

Hi, i know i have some of my fans screaming noisily saying that i dun update my blog enough. so i guess i might as well just do it before i get more walls of noises coming my way.

i just got back my kadazan dictionary and grammar. it's awesome. it reminds me of my heritage and how proud of i am of being what i'm brought up to be. as most of you would know or have come to know of.. i'm more kadazan than chinese..though i am proud of my chinese side too. but it's my kadazan side that fostered my curiousness for music and nature. the fusion of 2 such great entities came to me 1 day as i was wandering around aimlessly in the concrete woods of my so called modern life. only through certain road blocks and not so magical encounters that i have stumbled upon or more appropriately lead to and encounter that i will never forget. divine intervention for some, fate to most.

to me. it's the beginning of life. something i can't understand. something so enigmatic we just find it so intriguing to pursue. some say curiosity killed the cat but i say peculiarity has led to many self discoveries. through years of careless observation. i find that all of us are short of something. we always are in search of something. thus without fail, never finding it. cause that IT has already found us and has always looked over and we over looked it often too many instances. sometimes all we need to execute is not our sins, pain, negativity, pessimism, despair, hopeless-ness.... but instead our emotional disposition and egoistic nature. our unwillingness to change and accept that we are nothing but a frail and fractured soul. with a deepen sense of loneliness amidst seas of people. we find ourselves lost and over powered by what we claimed to be ours.

our mind has tendencies to flirt with our conscience. our soul romances our spirit. our body confounded with the many distractions in life. fallen we have, but redeemed we are.

"in crimson blood have i found majesty,
bread and wine is the hope i have in me"

sometimes or rather most times. we christians have over spiritualise concepts that sounds amazing yet lack the very knowledge and practice of LOVE and MERCY and GRACE.
in circles we go round and around just like children playing around the rosie. full of smiles and laughter. but never noticing the broken ones outside the park fence looking in. longing for the joy and delight of the beautiful sunshine.

it's amazing how i start out writing bout myself and end up writing philosophy.
must be the music i'm listening.. but my life has just started. i can see the light up ahead of me. this darkness is passing by me very fast. soon i will be outside playing under the sun and rain. =)
thank you to all who made me realize life is not a bottle of wine, or a box of chocolate or even myself.

"Making my moon like the sun
Looking at stars instead of the Son
Staring into heaven from the rooftops
Maybe, just maybe that's where my life starts"

cheers,
bryan john limus

Thank You Rachel Chew

2006-02-19T22:11:00.000-08:00

Hi all...

i would like to thank rachel chew for designing a nice graphic for the alpenglow. =)
if u wanna check it out..do so here or at the side menu bar or at my previous post. Thank You Rachel!!! i owe a big one..so from now on i'll be as nice as u want me to be...i'll help u in anything~~
i won't annoy or irritate u...

and also...i have noticed that "alpenglow" can be mis-pronounced as al-peng-low..if you're chinese..or asian... anyway...to clear that..it's pronounced as al-pen-glow.. =)
and yes it is an english word...u can do a search for alpenglow on dictionary.com...haha
but it was fun hearing it being mis-pronounced...

so now i've updated my blog..i can move on with my life..
i will be in australia next year...to continue my studies....i'm ecstatic but at the same time feeling
a little sad coz i'm gonna leave all the good things here...i dunno how my future's gonna be like..
mebe hard..mebe a little easier...

but for now i'm focusing on my current life..by the way..i will be releasing an album this year from the alpenglow and also another album from knil army... so watch out for it..and i really hope for people to support us.. =) hopefully.hehehe...

and i've already invited ben-shyen and ann-nyee as guests for the alpenglow's list of features..hehe..coz i dun really sound dat well alone..haha..so i'm really looking forward to recording with them here...

oh and here's the graphic done by none other than Rachel Chew...

THANK YOU RACHEL...!!! (she's my fav designer)

the alpenglow

2006-01-24T02:58:00.000-08:00

this is my current new band...
www.purevolume.com/thealpenglow

support me by spreading the news of this... =)
thank you

bryan limus

Hi..long time....

2006-01-18T18:14:00.000-08:00

Currently Listening to: The Academy is... - Almost Here(Album)

hey everybody who's faithfully blogging...and also faithfully visiting..since i dun update often..here's a freebie..i'm updating..yay~!! right~~let's move on..

i've been downloading and buying albums...coz i just love them..if only i could buy music
off itunes...which will cut my shipping costs..
Listings:-
1. Funeral for a Friend - Hours
2. Haste the Day - When Everything Fails
3. The Academy Is... - Almost Here
4. Panic! at the Disco - A Fever You Can't Sweat Out
5. Sparta - Porcelain
6. Underoath - They're only Chasing Safety
7. Explosions in the Sky - The Rescue
8. Fort Minor - The Rising Tied
9. Roadrunner United - The All Star Sessions
10. Paramore - All We Know is Falling

There..my 10 albums that i have and like...actually there are MILLIONS more..but yeah...these should be enough to let you know what i'm listening to...mind you...i'm still tryin to get more albums under my wings..uhm... whatever...

not much for me to update actually...and a little lazy too...hehe...
to let some of you know...i've got msn and yahoo and also skype...
i'm usually on during office hours...coz got pc mar...
msn: cheapskate417@hotmail.com (PLEASE dun send anything to this email..i dun use it)
Yahoo: bryanlimus@yahoo.com
Skype: bryanlimus
ICQ: 24654069

and i've got new photos on my flickr site...so check it out lar...if u want to that is...
i have some hjuicy updates...hehehe...if u wanna know...ask me on any of my IM =)

muahahahaha....its all good now..i'm lazy...and i'm still lazy...
do check out the websites on the sidebar...it'll let you know a lot bout me...
for those who are still trying to figure things out...continue figuring...

bryanlimus

now it's the time..

2005-12-14T23:54:00.000-08:00

Currently listening to: Holly Brook - Heavy

can't wait for this album to come out..she's hot and has a really awesome voice...

anyway...me and jack went to check out a studio yesterday..called standing wave studio..
check out www.standingwave.com.my

this is not confirmed news...but most probably we will head into a studio to record our first album..no album title has been finalized yet...but yes...we are very excited bout this...
hopefully everything will turn out great and you good people out there would fully support us...
right~... we'll be starting our recording in january..after everyone has come back from their hols and breaks..

i'll be flyin' back on 20 dec and be back in subang on the 2nd of jan...that's right..this time it's a short hol..due to our busy schedule for AYA festival..have you heard? delirious is coming to malaysia...so that'll be cool...
5 monkies will be coming over to KK to crash my crib...so get ready kk frens...we got guests we can scare...3 girls and 2 guys..and isn't that nice...haha..

will be doin lots of things while i'm back..so i'm gonna have all the fun i can get..
so yeah..
do check out the knil army website...and have a merry big christmas with friends and families alike...

and kien yiak if you're reading this...you're wrong...hahaha... (watever that meant)

dreams are meant to be fulfilled, not kept in treasure boxes.

2005-11-18T02:21:00.000-08:00

its been a while since i written an entry...
i just finished reading Ichigo 100%. A japanese manga. if any of you are able to read it..go ahead..its really good..
i'm really touched by how the characters built their relationships together. how their emotions were brought out by the author. amazing...right now i still feel like i'm stuck in the story.

i really wish to reach out and fulfill my dreams. touch them and hold them ever so closely to my heart. coz i know if i lose my dreams i'll be nothing more than a meaningless and aimless soul on this earth. i dunno how many of you feel like that..but somehow everyday i feel as if my dreams are laying dormant...sleeping an everlasting sleep..too lazy to wake up..all because i did not or do not intend to wake them up.

but from today onwards. i will not only live my dreams for myself. but for the God who created - though i know i have a long way to go before i can learn how to fully rely on my Saviour- and also my loved ones around me. seeing Bernard Hiew trying to achieve what he longs for has also reminded me that i am not fully utilising my potential.

i do not want to be a rockstar. but i do want to be someone whose voice is being heard by the masses of people in this world. my world is free and is borne out of the freedom my God has given me. i'm not given wings to be grounded on the floor but instead gifted with the ability to soar on the winds of faith. what my eyes can't see now, i will see with the eyes of faith.

i'm not a man of words or a person of courage. now i know how timid i am in pursuing my goals and my vision. i shy away from them instead. hiding in the shadow of another's dream or vision. knowing mine would be pale in comparison to theirs.

day after day.. i feel the time of my death is nearing..whose isn't..but mine feels like its only around the corner..time is short..the sun will not shine one day as we would have felt its ray anymore. believe me.... it will come...

i have seen and heard the miracles that people have experienced..yet i have not experienced mine. then again...i know i will have that great word to testify for my Saviour..my beautiful Savior.

thank you to my all friends who have supported me in my journey in life. especially to those who grew up with me. knowing how much i needed to grow up and be more matured. the times we had together were awesome...my high schoolmates...i wouldn't have understood meekness or
humbleness without them..
my family...i wouldn't have been proud of my heritage without my dad and his side of the family..they're great great great people...my mum and her side of the family are equivalently as awesome...not a single day that goes by have i forgotten bout any of you.

it's a lovely day..not to die..but to actually breath in the nice cool morning air and knowing that we're still alive...and given another chance at our dreams..so when finally it's over i know havent' wasted a single day. or even regretting by the time the sun sets...

all of us...our sun will set soon...but before that happens..let the afternoons of our lives be as alive as the birds in the sky. let our mornings be as refreshing and inspirational as the morning dews and the raindrops. and when the time do come for us to say good bye. Let there not be mournings of defeat. but instead there would be cries and tears of joy that this man has fulfilled not only his dreams but has played a huge role in helping others achieves theirs.....

Let us move on into a beautiful afternoon together.

bryan

online photos..

2005-10-11T20:20:00.000-07:00

i've got a flickr account now..so u ppl can check out the photos that i have..not that its a lot..haha..or any where close to being interesting..just wanna share them with u all...it'll fun seeing how i've "grown" haha...

thanks again..here's the add

http://www.flickr.com/photos/bryanlimus/

* awaken *: Knil Amy @ Peace Day

2005-10-04T03:59:00.000-07:00

http://weeliem.blogspot.com/2005/09/knil-amy-peace-day.html

check my band member's blog out..got some nice photos on the gig we had in times square...

its been a long while...and updates for this long while..

2005-09-11T20:42:00.000-07:00

hey..to those who have been faithfully following up on this blog..i'm gonna reward u with an update...that's right..haha..i know its been a while since i did anything here...
oh...most imporantly..KNIL ARMY is having a gig this sunday the 18th September 2005...@ 5pm we'll be at Berjaya Times Square for a gig...i think the event is caled peace day...so any of u can come and support us...please do come and support us...hehe..

and on to more pressing issues..lots has been happenin for me..but i'm stil lazy to type it out...so do msg me on skype if u do have it...add me..my username is bryanlimus...that's all there is to it..then we'll have a nice chat lar..during office hours lar for me...coz at home no pc mar...and then if u want..there are new photos on my friendster...nothing special..just ugly ole me...haha

now on to even more pressing issues...please check out Think.com.my...we really work hard for it..so just go ahead surf in and read our articles...its really good..i've read them myself..and they really are relevant and practical...and check out the flush section..its killer...haha...

for more info...chat with me and talk to me on my phone..or sms...okies..thank you then..
bye bye..

I've got new cats at home...yay!

2005-06-30T19:00:00.000-07:00

well..not to sound like a fag or anything...but hey i love cats..like some of you liking chocolate..except cats u can't eat..tha's all mar..

check them out at my brother's blog... bassics.blogspot.com ....
be sure to do it..

thanks everyone for dropping by...i promise i'll TRY to blog more often..

at least i'm gonna try..
thanks again..

Links Links Links

2005-06-15T22:12:00.000-07:00

there are a few links that you should try out..

www.purevolume.com
www.purevolume.com/knilarmy - just uploaded new songs..
www.knilarmy.com - look out for the new website design..it's really cool
blog.flatfish.com.my - a blog?
www.think.com.my - webzine...really nice..
www.aya.org.my/forum - its a forum for AYA

i guess dats all for now..thanks..

the papaya has gone from bad to good...

2005-05-02T19:33:00.000-07:00

i'm joining malaysian idol..haha...will tell more bout that...hopefully i wont get in trouble...

www.aya.org.my/forum ...sign up and read up...
i got a gig with unabashed this friday...a radio station production to finish by this week..a tv show to play with my other band - knil army - ...will give more info bout things...i havent been sleeping well..or sleeping right..i think i need to cut down on my time spent outside the house..haha...

i got 14 reports to write...haha...dieded...i bought peter pan...will buy love me butch's new album...cut my hair just now...bought hair cream...

and still feeling tired..that';s right tired...dun mind the post title...but it is something to think about...haha...

thank you for dropping by..will post more often now..thank you..

oddest ball he goes goo goo...

2005-03-09T19:12:00.000-08:00

have u ever thought why in the world would i set my blog pinky pink...
well lemme tell u of a story...clap hands first.... *clap clap clap* ......
thank you..that's the end of my story...

i just thought having a different color form normal would be nice...and i really like pink...especially when girl's wear pink...i'll always fall for them...i mean those kind of sweet and warm pink color...man...i'll fall for those anytime....who's in this with me...

i'm listening to some really good stuff now...bought a couple of albums...i got the seven collar t-shirt album..titled drones...dunno what to say bout it yet..have really listen to it on good speakers...cant enjoy it on my lousy cheap 2 piece flat response no bass frequency terrible sounding yet still works when i need it the most kind of speakers....and i have 2 pairs of them speakers...how bout that for a loyal to cheap speakers audio engineers right...haha

now i'm wondering whether i'm part of general public...or messed up but yet rocking in life kinda people...one thing for sure is i wish i had more money...to buy more stuff...to support my ever growing hobbies...actually i love lots of things...i have lots of hobbies i wanna try out...just dun have the hobby time to execute it..know what i mean...i love reading...seriously...i really love reading....more than playing games...well maybe at the same level...i love sports too...any sport...i'm willing to try...i love music...i love jamming..i love doing all sorts of stuff...i love sleeping..but i can't sleep most of the time...i love eating...just dun have the cash....i love exercising..but it's an expensive way to keep fit...i love the gym...as i said..expensive...
i'm like the bryan of all trades but best at none...notice the sentence there..no it's not wrong..it's on purpose...i'm malaysian...what can u expect from a east malaysian...smart and handsome and twisted....haha...honestly...agree with me on this...

i look at all my cousins on my dad's side...man they look to so good..including my brother...handsome lot...beautiful bunch...they're like model people...i'm serious...and me..i'm stuck in the cheena look...haha..but at least i dun act chinese...my bro doesn't like kadazan food...practically hates it...but for me..i love it so much...all the Hinava and Bambangan i can eat..can u imagine...and then the sup sokoo manuk...whoa...nice~~ then sup ikan basungan...pinasakan...sweet smelling man...i miss my grandma's cooking!! and i miss her...i wish she was still around...call me a cry baby or sissy...i really feel sad and depressed sometimes thinking of my favourite aunt and grandma who has already passed away...my aunt died young becoz of a mis-diagnosis by the hospital...Queen Elizabeth Hospital...they said my aunt got infected with dengue...but actually she had meningitis cockles...which could have been cure easily with antibiotics...but it was too late when they found out...the put her into the ICU...n told us the illness is contagious...airborne...stupid hospital!!! my aunt suffered big time..all her blood veins started to rupture..and blood filled her tissues...and her skin swelled big time so it really hurt!
they had to adminiter morphine..think of it morphine...so she was practically in a daze all the time..in and out of conciousness...it was such a painful experience seeing my aunt suffer...
i didn't have the chance to even say good bye to her..it so messed up man...she was a hair stylist...she was the one who always cut my hair...trim it...no else touched my hair man...only her...no one else! when she was gone...my hair had never been the same..seriously..the touch wasn't there anymore...the love and care...she was funny..and scary at the same time..haha...

and then my grandma...i miss her even more...i never treated her well..and now i really regret fully...i'll never forget...the reason i write songs now is becoz of my grandma and my aunt...they inspire me with their unconditional love..especially my grandma....especially her...she was the best...but i never treated her well enough...i'm sorry grand ma... " au izou do apandai do majaga iziau..susah ginavo ku bai no...aiso no diti do iziau..." i miss you grandma...............
my grandma passed away becoz of stomach ulcer...so she bled internally...i never had the chance to say good bye to her either...what is this...a curse? i wish i could've done more for my grandma...i honestly do...drive her to the pasar early in the morning..how hard was it for me??
man..i'm so full of regret and remorse...there's nothing i can do now...but to continue writing songs and music...continue living life and trying to inspire those who are around me and close to me..do whatever i can to make people's life easier even if it means pushing myself to my limit...
i'm trying hard...so God please help me...my only prayer is to let me be an inspiration to people...help me become someone who can impact and life easier and more meaningful for people......Amen...

thank you for reading all the way...this is how i really feel for everyone...thanks to all of you who have inspired me in countless ways...thank you so much....i'm sorry if i'm post was so long and such a bore...was just venting out...need to write out....as happy as i may look...depressed and sad i may be within...

thanks again...

God bless

time for blogging again

2005-02-17T19:37:00.000-08:00

things have been running again..been awhile since i actually blogged..a new year ahead of me...lots of new things heading my way...
listened and heard and sorta analyze butterfingers new album...really good...love the guitar works...loque is really good with the guitar...talented is all wat i can say...

knil army will record this year...indefintely...or definitely...how ever u see it....haha...
it'll be a 5 or 6 songs EP....one of the titles for it it EPilogue...but still in discussion for it...
and also..look out for our new song "Shine" out on www.purevolume.com/knilarmy...
am in d midst of mixing it...so hopefully will be out by end of this month...

i've been writing music again..well at least i try right...so hopefully will be able to do good stuff for the community...

played futsal and basketball...but yet still gaining weight..i guess its the food i eat lar..in KK i never had this problem..mebe becoz gym was cheap..haha...RM4 per entry...amazing...never knew such a place exist...

i've got nuttin much to type now...well mebe becoz i'm lazy..haha...
will try to post more....yeah right~~ haha

God bless....

The End - the end of a beginning.. =)

2005-01-05T07:51:00.000-08:00

hey ppl of the world...how's things coming along in the new year...the year of 2005 holds a lot of future for everyone...come on....be optimistic...haha..

well...as the titles presumes...i assume the presumptions made by any of you is true..haha..watever i'm talking bout...sorry nadia...watever that's for..
i'll be leaving for subang in 1 day time...i'm kinda reluctant..i like being home...but sometimes it gets too slow for me..but i just want to take things chill out way...i'm not made to be busy u know..but hey...good things come to an end..then better things comes after dat..well..at least there's sumtin to look forward to...haha..

lots of things i've done here..but mainly just resting and sleeping all day long...i'm kinda lazy to type out the things i did here...so ask me when u're free if u r interested to know... =)
i'm gonna miss this place again..home!!! where else can i be....except home...
well it's gonna end soon...bummer...haha..

will see those west malaysians soon...so long to my east malaysian families...
had an awesome time..u wouldn't have guessed the fun i had...

so long everyone...may our paths be rejoin by the fate that has always brought us together..
may we meet again in the near future..haha...so fun.. thank you all!!
i was really blessed!!

long time...and back in sabah

2004-12-26T11:31:00.000-08:00

hi everyone..gotten complaints that i dun blog often...at least i try to blog...

i'm back in kk..been back for a week...i'm having a good time chilling out at home..feels good to sleep more than staying awake the whole day...haha...
i just came back from pulau sapi today...i seem to visit the island every year...which is actually a good thing...coz there aint no islang or nice beaches where i live in west malaysia...probably the local drain or water plant is the closest thing...
the island's water was pretty cold this year compared to my precious visits...and it rained in the morning when i woke up..but thank God it stopped...both my arms and neck are burnt...n they're really dark and nicely red..reminds me of cooked crabs...haha..and its stinging me right now..especially my neck area..its painful...hard time sleepng later...
i did some light scuba diving today..free of charge..haha...did lots of snorkeling...taught a couple of girls how to swim..my greatest achievement of the day is getting to take pictures with them..coz they learned how to float and swim because of my efforts..hahaha...i know i'm good~ ...
so they kinda like called me "si fu"....haha...we had like 16 ppl on this island trip..cool man..i liked it a lot..mebe will visit the beach some where this week...if got frens teman me lar..should have one lar..haha..i wonder how;s things in back in subang and church...kinda miss things there..but here nicer coz i got a car...but i miss my guitars..my pedals...my toys..and my bolster the most..i cant really sleep soundly without a bolster...
would like to thank all my frens back in subang for a great year...was a really good year...achieved a lot of things...so i'm expecting my presents..ok...thanks...
i din catch any mother's kissing santa clause this year...mebe santa should be more like the metro sexual kind..u know wat i mean..trim his beard..have a more trim body...u know..he could win lots of hearts out there...anyway...back to me...

will be goin out with a lot of frens this week...gonna pack it out...classmates...old frens...older frens...relatives...cousins...yeah...dats it i guess..will continue to write as soon as i feel like it...

nadia...i want my present ok...tell me wat u want..i'll get for you...but i'll see wats mine first...no t shirts saying "i'm american".. please...i've already got a bad accent problem...i have this american accent i cant lose...terrible...

kai ling1!!!...tell me wat present you would like...bird's nest is kinda hard for me...sumtin lower in range...is dat cool for you my dear... =)

everyone else...be so kind to get me a present...dun worry..i wont be obliged to return the favor..haha..kidding...

carolyn..merry christmas...sorry couldn't be there for cyber christmas...and also to MMU fren;s..sorry ya...would to be there..but the beaches here are rocking...

band members of knil army..we gotta do sumtin man...haha...i'm ready for next year...got some new inspiration after my island trip..sumtin like dat...

to those who dun know... knil army is online @
www.knilarmy.com

listen/download our music @
www.purevolume.com/knilarmy

check out www.soundslikechicken.com.au
really cool band...one of my good mate's band in aussie land...got their album..
thanks to Nat Kitingan for it...i love the album man..

ok everyone...
pray that i wont get too fat ...coz i'm actually am...

daniel lee...u gotta email more man..sorry i dun reply emails..unless they're frm pretty ppl...

Broken Beauty

2004-11-16T01:49:00.000-08:00

found this in my scrapbook too...very sad poetry...wonder why..mebe i was more negativa then..haha

The fragrance of my brokenness
A sacrifice of promise and praise
My self pity and loneliness
Has brought me a dead end maze
of lies and deceit
of shame and pain

Underneath a sky of stars
Like fiery eyes that stares
Deep into my mind
That breaks into my soul
Why have You forsaken me?
Maybe i have disobeyed You...

Am i to give in into my desires
Closer to my grave and the fire
Of my tragic end
Will i see You again

author: Bryan Limus

Make Me Whole

2004-11-16T01:42:00.000-08:00

found this in my notebook...forgot all bout it...but din know i could write such poetry...hmm...
wonder wat was i feeling then...
read no friends...

Make me whole
show me what is lost
In time long forgotten
Hidden deep within
A place so rotten

Melt my cold wodden heart
Break my wall frozen soul
This is where You start

Tomorrow is not my goal
Today is when i change
Yesterday my heart You stole
Everyday facade fades away
Life's charades torn away!

author: Bryan L.

Where Am i Looking at?

2004-10-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

As my emotions lay waste
Our sweet romance turns to grace
In a dream when one awakes
Trapped in an endless solitary maze

A thought crushed my mind
Your serenity sets in behind
Four walls of self pity
Wishful toughts, hate and false humility

Here i am in a prison
Guilty of my own reasons
The pride that i wear as my necklace
My life as a hostage of being reckless

Making my moon like the sun
Looking at stars instead of the Son
Staring into heaven from the rooftops
Maybe, just maybe that's where my life starts

hello...

2004-10-20T20:12:00.000-07:00

ehh...nearing to the AYA dinner...and work for me is piling up..haha...i'm gonan get killed real soon...so much work so little time..due to people not giving me the resources to continue or even finish my job...

anyway...i've change my blog's look..cleaner now...brighter..simpler..yet still looks dumb...
i added my new pet...call it duckie..haha..looks cute ain't it..i still prefer my penguin..can't find a nice one..

do give me a tag if u have visited my blog...
currently i have no time in writing poetry or songs...too busy to even go out with my gf...honestly...i'm really tired of working..i just wanna do sumtin else for now..haha..

take care everyone...

my once in a while dosage of blogging is done..

the days has past me by

2004-10-17T04:46:00.000-07:00

well...infest is done with..now is AYA anniversary...here comes the load of work...piling up..haha..
at least i'm having fun..
i'm in midst of finishing another poetry..yet to be titled...but looks like its gonna be a nice one..haha..well i think so lar..
i scrapped jesselton walks...coz sounds lame..haha...but i just wrote another whole new song..untitled...but will be in knil army's list of songs...not easy to write for knil army..imagining the type of musical influence/genre fusion kinda thing....
knil army is planning hit the studio an rehearse and also to record our very first EP...haha..well plan only lar...hope it'll be great..will probably only feature instrumentals that speaks of life and how we perceive it and how we lock on to God for strength and hope....

dats all for now..next would be other ramblings of ow much i ate and how my gf dun like me eating a lot..haha...and how fat i've become..hehe...getting use to it...which is not a very good thing! haha

take care people..do drop by a line...=)

halo..

2004-10-03T20:47:00.000-07:00

hey everyone..its posting time again..haha...dunno how many people actually read this blog..
oh yeah...how's everyone outside doing?

Knil army will not be playing for the Infest gig in summit hotel...sad to announce that...due to Jack not being able to make it...coz he's goin to Laos for a mission trip...
Her Reverie will be on in Infest..so is Shelley Leong...Unabashed...and the good sheperd band...
come and join us in the summit hotel...15 oct 2004...will rock..!! haha

ok..dats all for now..
take care

yo...Adsense

2004-09-28T19:59:00.000-07:00

hey people...i've just added some search engine and some ads below...if possible...i hope you kind people can click on it everytime your visiting.. =)
it helps me make money..hehehe...and if possible try to search from my page with the seach engine below ....hehe...i feel so bad...
ok thank you everybody...

God bless...

its 3 am...i'm still awake...

2004-09-24T13:13:00.000-07:00

ok...some updates...well more like my thoughts...i dun really share my personal thoughts in public...
to those who know..i have a band called Knil Army...i've been in the band for almost 1 year...almost...or even more...but the progress we've made have been really slow..due to our main commitments in life...so i suddenly have thoughts of resigning from the band..and that is also why i started my own side project band...but seems that...my side project will be on hold...i will continue with Knil Army...
currently things are not really goin the way i foreseen it to be...but because of that i've learn to grow and relearn new things...i'm now beginning to see the beauty of being broken...emotions which have been laying dormant in my own self are now awakening...haha..my song writing has been coming back to me slowly...lyrically saying...well i quite bad..but now i've sorta found inspiration to write good poetry..at least to me its good..haha..

Potrait of a life
so slowly fades away
in all its glorious disarray

paint pastel colours
like the rainbows of glory
am i too late for a sorry

will i remember yesterday
forgetting who am i today
illusions of imperfect reality
delusions of a life without honesty
fallen heroes calling tragedy

in crimson blood have i found majesty
bread and wine is the hope i have in me

oceans and skies
honor and pride
wage wars for nothing
but truthful lies

sunshine and rain
the beginning and the end
of a new eternity
of ashes and beauty reign

author: bryan limus

this is one example...i dunno if its good..but looks good to me..haha...
anyway...i'm almost done with my new song..called jesselton walks...inspired by the people around me...friends and family...foe and enemies...hahaha...anyway...it sounds really cool to me..so hope to be able to show it to the band and jam it..and record...will put it on the net after i'm don recording it...thanks to all the people who have supported me...
and thanks for prayers...

God bless you all....

another packed month for me....

2004-09-23T21:12:00.000-07:00

hey everyone...i'm really worn out...been having dance practices non stop for the past 3 days..plus another practice for a singing presentation...i'm so packed out..and i only came back from Kuching bout 2 weeks ago...no time to recuperate properly...
yesterday was my girl friend's birthday...and guess what..i was so busy i couldn't even spent time with her..so i guessed i was looking for trouble...anyway...i hadn't much of a choice...too bad for me right...that's right...awesome isn't it..how can i as a guy did not even try to spend some time with my girl friend on her momentous day...well..that's my life...pathetic and no lifer...=
so...my church elder getting married this weekend...cool..haha..gotta be a good time for everyone..

so God bless the people of this world and stop kiling each other...in any way they can...

signing out...

i'm back...

2004-09-13T19:36:00.000-07:00

am back from the kuching gig...was good...had very good response from crowd...61 salvations...so pretty awesome!
i've rocked quite hard that night...seriously...i jumped around...played my guitar so hard...jump from the drum riser here and there..haha...rocking man..but fun...though i had really sore muscles the next day..haha...
it was in Good News church...really nice place...almost looked like a dance club hangout place..u know wat i mean...but yet its still a great place for church...very inviting and welcoming..
just found out how fat i've gotten since i came back from kuching..now i'm gonna cut down on my food...and i also just found out i'm pretty much over weight..well but a few points only...like 0.5 or sumtin..so not much..but need to cut down..and do more exercise...anyone wanna join?

anyway..wont type long...thanks for reading people...great hearing from all of you...

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