Sunday, January 25, 2009
I decided to start blogging again. i noticed i haven't had any posts since a long time so might as well before i totally lose track of myself.
Writing for this blog is always a struggle and has always been. My thoughts are rather personal, so is my life. Which makes it even harder a struggle to post something.
I would like to start with introducing my girlfriend, significant other and my love, Sallester Lez Justin. She's a beautiful one. nothing has really been easy you know though i have finally reached a point where i'm ready for a commitment. to most girls probably this is a dream come true if their man actually has decided this. for me, it is far from it. it takes a lot of effort..a lot...
There has been loads of ups and downs. i don't think this is the end of the ride rather a beginning of a long journey. This time i'm giving my all and not giving up. Ester said that loving is painful and i had to really think in depth bout it. How can love be painful?
I know everyone deserves to have the best. Who doesn't right. But not everyone is always at their best. That's the irony of life. The irony of my life. I love Ester so so much. In my heart i know i have never fought so hard. Put in tremendous effort to actually maintain the relationship. I'm not one to play a fool anymore. Getting rather tired of playing the "love game". Never really like the idea of dating for fun and end up breaking the relationship and hurting someone. It's a painful experience.
I don't have much of an idea to what i want to post this time round. Except to tell the world i'm with Ester and i would do as much as i can to have her hand in marriage. Being together with her brings a smile to my face. Like how it is bringing a smile to my face now.
So here's a photo of us together. Congratulate us if you will and support us if you can. In this world there have been numerous counts of backstabbing, bad mouthing, slandering, deception, manipulation and other negatives. We had to go through them. Its painful to know that they're from the people closest to us.
Give us a chance to live our life peacefully. I'm not rich, i don't have money. i don't have anything materialistic to give to my love except my unconditional love alone. Anyone in this world deserves to have a chance to try and live their own decisions.
bryan

Thursday, May 29, 2008
My macbook has been officially pimped..
here are a couple of photos to show you how pimped out my macbook is..
ride on...


Thursday, May 22, 2008
These Tears They Hurt While I Stare at the Blank Static Screen.

I got the opportunity to play in a multi cultural fest in brisbane..so here's a photo update of it.. =)

Saturday, May 17, 2008
Of vanities and vanities..i will yet have another photo update..thus far i have so much as gained lotsa weight..losing the sight of my collar bone..its most probably due to the fall/winter weather..its getting cold and my body is trying to adapt to it..and probably also due to my diet..
and lacking in the exercise too plus the lack of rest or actually the messed sleeping patterns..i have managed to gained lotsa bulk..as you can see in the photos...
there it is..photo update may 08..
cheers..oh..i'll be back in malaysia soon..see you all..

yes..apparently i've grown in bulk~

my hair has grown much longer too

my collection of shoes is growing too

smile..for her~

rock on! punk!

friends after a gig in brisbane

after the gig..some memories to go by

Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Hey readers,
just had the privilege to send another friend off today. in retrospect i guess they're goin home in another view its kinda sad coz friends are leaving and we just don't know when we'll be meeting again. having international friends is awesome although chances of meeting with each other is at an all time low.
well, it'll be my turn soon and i'll be missing this place. Brunswick Heads, Byron Bay, Brisbane, Gold Coast...Australia as a whole. But home is where my heart is and home i will go back to. Home will always be the place that will remind me of where i started off and why did i go off in this direction for my life journey.
nothing's perfect in this world. that's the beauty of it. imperfectness brings a sort of beauty that's alive. being perfect is unfathomable to me. i will never be able to imagine that i do not need anything anymore. i do not need this and that... it is scary for me..but what's that you say. heaven's like that. dead wrong..only God's perfect. =) when we're in heaven we still need to do lots of things but the main thing is worship God day and night.
anyway.... i'll be home soon and i'm excited but i'm also sad at the same time when i have to leave new found friends and buddies. well that's life..we grow close and we grow apart and we build new bridges and continue building them as we progress on in our journey.
So to my mates who's gone. cheers and hope we'll meet again in the near future.
signing off
bryan
